Tired of worrying.!!

[LostHope123]

I think i have ocd. Nowadays I am realising it more.
When I was kid I used to check locks of door, my bag is with me or not.
Currently I have hiv ocd from re use of syringe. I also have diabetes ocd for less time though. I was once mis diagnosed for glaucoma I still have that thought somewhere in my mind.
Today one incident happend I bought my self a new connection had to sign some papers.
Now I am think is was that sellsman a fraud.
Was I signing something I shouldn't.
Was he making me sign property papers.
I am tired of doubts. I think i will go mad one day.
Whenever I am free of one thing, I start to worry about something else.
Has anyone been into similar situation?

[JGF25]

I told you it was called the doubting disorder.  It is like checking the locks.  You check, and then you jiggle it some more and then again, and again.  The way you get out of things like this is you can only check once.  Say out loud it is locked and then move on.  For testing, you can only test once.  Then you have to make yourself believe the test.  That comes with self-coaching and cognitive behavioral therapy and that is what you learn from a psychologist.  

[LostHope123]

I will try but not sure.. What if I am Actly infected. And I seek therapy for it being not infected.
I feel lyk I am in circle. How much I try I can not get out of it.
I tested twice for hiv and every time I thought this time I was see and observe and will not leave any doubt.
It never happens. I take blood test and then again I think same.

[JGF25]

That's good to hear.  I'm glad you have the ability to see someone.  You have had it for a long time and we develop our own coping skills.  Sometimes though it becomes too much for us to handle, we get tired of it all.  Good luck and let me know how it goes for you.  :)  JGF

[LostHope123]

I live in india. If this is ocd I have had it from long time. It was not disturbing like this before. I could control it.
I will see a phycologist as early as possible.

[JGF25]

You have just explained OCD in a nutshell.  It is called the doubting disorder for a reason.  It does get quite exhausting fighting these thoughts and you are right, once you get closure on one another will pop up or something old will come back to haunt you.  Are you able to see a psychologist where you live?  
Here is a link to OCD in general and the steps that are necessary to overcome it.  
http://www.wsps.info/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=82:ten-things-you-need-to-know-to-overcome-ocd&catid=0