Hello to anyone willing to help. I've had these obsessive thoughts for about 3yrs, and no matter how many times i tell myself to stop thinking about it or you're just thinking stupid, i still can't stop. I've gotten help but all they gave me were pills that just seem to not work. I already felt embarrassed about going now i can't bring myself to go back to maybe get a higher dose or to even see what they can do for me. Ok so now for my thoughts ... i seem to think that i have a 100% chance everyday to somehow get pregnant. I know it sounds silly but to me the possibility seems real.
i can't ever go to the bathroom without being cautious about everything. The toilet seats, bath tub, towels, doorknob, toilet paper, anything my dad our brother use i just seem to think they are grosss and perm is everywhere and I'm somehow going to get pregnant. I hate these thoughts but they won't go away
Im also on birth control do to irregular periods and i know exactly when I'm supposed to start my period and it hasn't came since yesterday. So now my thoughts are going crazy and i just can't stop!
Might i add, yes I'm still a virgin.
I always told myself i didn't want kids because I'm focusing on my life and that's just not in the picture for me right now. So i guess i turned that into a fear that grew to fear of sperm, fear of pregnancy, fear of everything!
I really need advice and someone to talk to.