hocd

[tiredtroubled_soul]

I am 21 male heterosexual and never had a doubt about my sexuality..yes I was bullied in college 2-3 years back about girls and guys who thought I was gay.i remember 2 girls and 2 guys taunting me about being gay..it did hurt me a little bit but it never created any doubt in my mind because I knew for certain that I was straight and eventually what they said never even mattered to me.. 
   Coming to the hocd which I too hope that I have it stared about 1.5 weeks ago when I too had a horrible haircut and thought to myself that I looked gay..then on coming home my brother also teased me that I looked like a gay guy he had seen on tv which upset me..later that night I looked in the mirror and that is when the full blown thoughts first started...they were so disgusting..I began to ponder really hard..all those bullying episodes went though by brain further strengthening the ocd..I dont have anything against gay people because I hardly ever cared..but these thoughts really were disgusting. .I started to question myself what if I was gay and I didnt know it all this time..this lead to severe anxiety and I kept reassuring myself that there is no chance..but these thoughts just wont stop..I could not and still cannot concentrate on my studies because of these thoughts..I have my exams going on and I just hope I pass because these thoughts have disturbed me so much..I juat cant concentrate...I keep on crying on the inside..i just feel so depressed when these thoughts appear...the only silver lining for me in these 1.5 weeks is that these thoughts are on and off...its not like I suffer from them daily..a few days after the onset a friend of mine teased me about how glum I was looking(he thought I was tensed about my exams but I was having anxiety about my ocd) and that I would get some girl I my life...just a minute later I was all cheerful and the thoughts went away for a day..but they came back again...I have had 3 episodes of on-off hocd and when I dont have the thoughts I feel so high that I was foolishly worrying about nothing..for the last 2 days I had no thoughts again but now they have started again 2-3 hours back and again I cant concentrate on anything..what shall I do? These thoughts are draining me to the core..I sometimes just wish that it would be great if I could just kill off my subconscious mind :( :(

[123tushar07]

ocd is triggered by stress but it is biological and genetic in nature and regarding your condition buddy, untreated ocd will get more worse, so please consult a psychiatrist and a psychologist both, because ocd wont go on its own

[tiredtroubled_soul]

And now I am in lucid phase again..this one lasted for just 3-4 hours..all I needed to do was to watch porn with a hot girl in it and I am normal and happy again :)..I want to know if my ocd was caused because of the stress of my exams..for the last 20-25 days the only thing I do is study eat and sleep..I hardly have any social life..could stress have done this to me? Also can I get completely cured without therapy if the stress factor is removed?I dont take stress so well..even during my previous 3-4 exams I have developed loss of sensations in my body(a visit to a neurologist told me that I had high bp due to stress and no other abnormality) so is this ocd a kind of a manifestion of stress?