High, I'm 15 and I've been attracted to girls my whole life. I had a gay experience when I was 13, I used to always stay at my friends and one night he jacked me off in the dark. I was displeased with my self but I realized that what happened happened and I'm not gay because I don't find dudes sexually attractive. Anyway since then I've had my fair share of sexual experiences with girls which I've thoroughly enjoyed. Im not homophobic or feel like I'm in a closet but I keep having intrusive thoughts and fears. I feel anxious and kind of depressed, I don't wanna do anything I enjoy, I don't wanna hang out with friends, I just wanna stay in my own world. I've been in a relationship with a beautiful girl for about 6 months, lost my virginity with her a couple of weeks ago. I've been feeling down, fearful , having intrusive thoughts, depressed, anxious and unable to sleep. Ive also lost attraction to girls, I don't look at them like I used to, I don't masturbate or get urges, i don't anticipate sex with my girlfriend. I don't Enjoy life like I used to, I feel like I'm going insane.