Last night I got very drunk, and while I remember most of the night, I only vaguely remember driving in my car to go to McDonalds. I know it wasn't the most intelligent choice I made, I could have definitely put myself, or others, in danger. But when I woke up this morning, I had a persistent thought, or image, of me having gone downtown to pick up a prostitute, or any 'willing' person, and perform sexual acts with him or her. Now I'm not homosexual, and I don't fear homosexuals or homosexuality, and furthermore, even in the case of the opposite sex, I am quite shy, and don't get to have a lot of sex very often. It is true I have a persistent fear of acquiring HIV and, possibly, infecting my friends or family, and I don't know if I did what I did, commit a sexual act with someone I met on the street. I've never done anything like that before, and I rarely do have sex, but because alcohol was involved, I question whether something like this happened to me. Would I know deep-down if something like this happened, despite the alcohol? Am I under the grips of a delusion? I have to admit I have anxiety problems involving HIV, and I am seeing a counsellor, but she has been unavailable for the past couple weeks, and I've been making inroads, but now I've been hit with this, and I don't know what to do. My apologies for bombarding you with this. I just wonder what your take on it is. Is this a false memory? Can OCD make us feel like we have committed something so outside ourselves? And in truth, would our very selves stop us from doing something like this, even while drunk, because it is against our individual nature?