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woke up feeling better
Ive been doing alot of self coaching I guess you can say. All night last night whenever I had a thought or feeling come into me that I do not like I would say to myself this is not me. As well as when flashbacks would pop up I would say this is not me. Another one I was doing was when a feeling of guilt popped up for something In the past I would say this is not me Im stronger then this. Basically trying to get back into the mindset that I know myself best.
Also I am in school to be an Accountant and I graduate at the end of this month... And the constant analyzing my mind does I think will be a big benefit to me in my field in the future lol
I dont want to compromise my sex life either. so I will consult this with a Doctor. I also wanted to say when I was practicing the intrusive thoughts thing I felt real arousal a feeling I havent felt. But it seems that I can achieve this when I am in a comfortable mindstate. but in contrary the groinals I get from this illness although they do increase. They are not pleasurable at all
Monday I'm making the call.. JFG thanks for your help... I can no longer let this thing affect my future
Then by all means...get the treatment because you still have a long life ahead of you and it can and will be great I'm sure. There is one thing I want you to know about meds though....some of them do decrease the sex drive. It is an unfortunate side effect. So do a bit of research into the different meds. I was not willing to compromise my sex life...well I guess I was if nothing else worked, but what I found is that Wellbutrin, which is a SNRI rather than the standard SSRIs that are used, has the least side effects as far as libido goes. Good luck.
This week I am going to start seeking treatment... I truly at times feel like I lost myself.. including my character and my true self. I havent been my "real self" in over 6 or 7 years. What makes me depressed is from 16 to now 23 I have been so shy around girls due to my libido and all these doubts when in reality I have no reason to be Im not an ugly person and I do get attention from girls. My last relationship was at 15.. and I enjoyed it.
I also want to say that sometimes we let it go on too long and we forget what it feels like to be "well" and so we think we will never be the same again. I am here to tell you that you can get better and I think that for you, after this long, it is time to try a different strategy and that may very well be medication.
Yes. I happen to be an advocate for medication. I take it myself and it works well for me. Medication is not going to make you OCD-free. What it does is kind of put you back on the playing field with everyone else where you can think something irrational and then let it go just like people without OCD do. I cannot tell you that you will never have a panic attack again which is why I think a combination of CBT and medication is the best way to go.
the breathing calms me down. But it seems to me like everything is 2d. Maybe I waited too long to acknowledge this thing that scares me. My anxiety level is certainly high all the time. Even when I wake up. Maybe if I get on a medication this will assist me in getting rid of this feeling as well? I read that SSris assist with this feeling.
No, it goes away for me. I get a handle on it. I don't think you are there yet. You are more than likely still in a high anxiety state. What happens when you do the breathing technique in this situation? You can breath when you are out in public...give it a try and see if it helps.
JFG I have a question. I know u said youve dealt with depersonalization and derealization before a panic attack occurs. But have u dealt with a prolonged feeling of this. when I'm out or speaking to people its kind of like everything is 2d. This occured after my panic attack and the feeling has gradually increased it seems.
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