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OCD and Fear of HIV
Hi All
I am so pleased that I have found this forum, as I feel quite alone and have no-one really to chat to about what I go through except my therapist, but often I think that she is just appeasing me.
My story is that I think that I have had ocd in some form or another for most of my life. When I was a teenager I suffered from anorexia, which I have heard is a form or an expression of ocd. And I have always basically been paranoid and very much always assuming the worst.
The latest obsession that I have is HIV. I had protected sex with a friend of mine over a year ago and am completely convinced that I have now been infected with HIV. The friend has reassured me time and time again that he is negative and plus we used protection. But everynow and then my ocd flares up and nothing that anyone says can convince me otherwise. The friend thinks that I am a complete lunatic and we hardly speak to each other anymore as a result of all this.
This isn't the first time I have thought I have had HIV, in the past I have worried about this and despite negative tests I still remained convinced that I have HIV.
Is there anyone out there who can relate to me? I would love to hear from you.
Please if you are going to tell me to just have an hiv test, don't respond as even though I know is is the most rational thing to do, I can't.
Thanks
I am so pleased that I have found this forum, as I feel quite alone and have no-one really to chat to about what I go through except my therapist, but often I think that she is just appeasing me.
My story is that I think that I have had ocd in some form or another for most of my life. When I was a teenager I suffered from anorexia, which I have heard is a form or an expression of ocd. And I have always basically been paranoid and very much always assuming the worst.
The latest obsession that I have is HIV. I had protected sex with a friend of mine over a year ago and am completely convinced that I have now been infected with HIV. The friend has reassured me time and time again that he is negative and plus we used protection. But everynow and then my ocd flares up and nothing that anyone says can convince me otherwise. The friend thinks that I am a complete lunatic and we hardly speak to each other anymore as a result of all this.
This isn't the first time I have thought I have had HIV, in the past I have worried about this and despite negative tests I still remained convinced that I have HIV.
Is there anyone out there who can relate to me? I would love to hear from you.
Please if you are going to tell me to just have an hiv test, don't respond as even though I know is is the most rational thing to do, I can't.
Thanks
You only have a chance of getting it if your partner is HIV positive. Do you know the HIV status of the guy you had sex with? If he is negative, then no of course you cannot get it. Do you know his status as far as STDs go in general? Because you may want to consider getting teseting for other STDs just in case.
You are obviously stressed and stress can weaken the immune system and make you more susceptible to things like a head cold.
You are obviously stressed and stress can weaken the immune system and make you more susceptible to things like a head cold.
I had unprotected sex while on my period about 5 months ago, in april, but got a test done in February before have sex, and I am married, didn't mean to do it, but I did and I am guilty, he is clean, and so was I, is there a chance that I still can get it? I am going for testing again this monday, I am so paranoid, because i got head cold in which is lightly but have lots of pressure on my head and ears and its freaking me out thing of that 3 letter word. My husband is fine, he has not shown any ill signs of any kind, knock on wood. I love him and will never hurt him again. Any advice please!!!
I can now relate to this, when it is something that would not have occurred to me a few months ago.
Depending on who you ask or exactly what happened, I had either negligible or substantial risk from (gay) sexual contact (including definitely acquiring a penile STD in the process).
A few weeks' later, I developed suspicious symptoms (some of which I still have after more than 3 months).
I tested negative at 11, 42, 51 and most recently 86 days post event, all with 4th generation tests (which are those routinely used in the UK's NHS).
All doctors / nurses / experts have said "the book is closed" - I am 100% HIV negative.
Do I believe them? Rationally: yes.
Can my head let this go? No.
I had diagnosed myself having contracted the STD and then the suspicious symptoms.
How to let this go???
Depending on who you ask or exactly what happened, I had either negligible or substantial risk from (gay) sexual contact (including definitely acquiring a penile STD in the process).
A few weeks' later, I developed suspicious symptoms (some of which I still have after more than 3 months).
I tested negative at 11, 42, 51 and most recently 86 days post event, all with 4th generation tests (which are those routinely used in the UK's NHS).
All doctors / nurses / experts have said "the book is closed" - I am 100% HIV negative.
Do I believe them? Rationally: yes.
Can my head let this go? No.
I had diagnosed myself having contracted the STD and then the suspicious symptoms.
How to let this go???
As much as I read that on hear and understand it I still think what of I made a mistake somewhere or the condom Didn work properly or when havin sex some time get ejaculate on me I worry it got in a cut or uretha or something I no it sounds stupid but after having every symptom going its hard to stop the worry but nice knowing I'm not alone
Oral sex is not a method of transmission for HIV. The saliva is not a condusive environment for the virus to live.
Hi I a gay male and only been the bottom partner twice in my life and top a couple of times to all with condoms but never have I uses protection for oral sex and I have not been tested for over 2 years cause I worry I could be the one in 10000 to get Infected through oral all I do is sit and look through the prevention site for the last couple of years it's nice to see I'm not alone
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