hello dr,
i used to read the oso , a phisopher, whose phisosy does not give the proper way to live the life . after reading the lectures of oso, i got with many mental problems because i could not control my brain. among the thoughts which whirl my mind, there was irritating point which propel me to many mental problem is that " brain works opposit to us "" . i also practiced the relaxation exercises i-e meditation . i used to concentrate my mind to my whole body and breath, through which i got relaxation and concentration. but suddenly the point" that brain function opposit to us" make me every time my brain fix toward my body either to the breath or legs . which causes my exccessive relaxation . i could not get control of this . every time this point whirle in my mind from sunrise to sunset. due to uncotrolled attention to the breathing i got dyspnea. all these things i shared with psychaitrist, who diagnosed my case as obssessive compulsive disorder.. i have taken his treatment from 2 n half years . through this i forget the thoughts constantly in my mind . now i have get rid of that problem , but still i can not get complete rid of that problem . i think if i forget oso,s philosophy . i may not feel this .but this is not possible to forget some thing . the thoughts which person wants to eleminate comes again and again in mind . normally when person are not aware of their psycology, they can controll their brain easily , but when they know about their psycosis or neurosis , they can not control this . some times my concentration also went to the mouth and psycolgically i get plenty of saliva secretion , because i feel that i can not forget it . i can not turn my attention from the point which i dislike .when we read a novel a sequence of imagination is produced in our mind but after getting my thoughts intturped i never see those imaginations, which generate while reading novels or stories . because i destroyed my thoughts . i have got the treatment, now i,m well but one thing which i still want to get my imagination n thoughts just like normal people . this is possible only after forgeting these philosophies . i want my brain which was present before knowing the philsophy . a brain which is involuntary full of thoughts going in rythm . now i used to interrupt my thought before they finish . if i forget these boring philosophies , i may get back my old brain . thanks i will wait for your reply
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hello recently, 4 months back i used to get stelazine along with escitalopram . igot good response i experience no interruption of thoughts but regular and rythmic thoughts but after six weeks , stelazine causes it,s side effect just like akathasia and restlessness in my legs and also slowness in my study speed . i had to force my mind to read . but after it,s withdrawl , i remained on escitalopram only but only interruption of thoughts occured . now my doctor is suggesting resperidone., but i,m afraid of it , i think it causes reversal of my symptoms . because i had the problems of ditraction of my attention again and again to my legs or whole body and also towards my breathing . sometimes my attention goes to one part of body , sometime to otherparts . it causes relaxation in my body but i,m phobc of this anxiolytic relaxation . doctor is suggesting resperidone , but i,m afraid that this may cause reversal of symptoms . wat can i do? . ishall take it or not?