all chemo was stopped to see what is going on

[dustinsmom2004]

There is a cancer treatment center of Az in Casa Grande that I was finally referred to for all of this junk that is going on. My ovca chemo was stopped until my new onc finds out what exactly is going on, he strongly suspects that it is an acute form of leukemia. I am tired all of the darn time and struggle to stay up. I swore that today I would spend time with my family, no matter what and not sleep like a darn cat. I keep my darn bartending job to keep my mind off of what is going on, and for a break from thinking about cancer.I am so frustrated with myself that I cant see straight. I am just going to work, dealing with drunks and sleeping the rest of the time. I am going in for blood work on Monday and will see him again in two weeks. I will probably from there according to my hubby be admitted to the cancer treatment center in Phoenix (wishing there was one somewhere that had a little better weather) with five kids I dont forsee too much company when I am there anyway, we cant shove everyone into my sedan with two car seats, and Dustin wouldnt fare well on a trip like that in this hot weather. My heart breaks for my hubby and children they are so sad and upset that I sometimes just cry for them. I am not all that worried about me, like the new onc said Ive already been to heck and back that I will pull through this one too. My children agree with that, my hubby is worried sick. I just wanted to update on what is going on. I am looking at it this way, at least I get a break from the chemo for awhile, and just maybe get some strength and energy back to deal with the new issues. I think that during this time Dustin and I are going to play catch up on his sensory and speech issues, he has declined quite a bit from when we were working on his issues every day all day.

[msjazz]

I hope you can get some relief somewhere. You have got to think about yourself sometime, somehow. I don't know how you can keep up all the children and a job too. Please try to find a way to rest and let your body get stronger.  Thinking of you,  Donna

[jlock]

I'm very sorry to hear this news.  I wish I was there to just give you a shoulder to lean on.  I know you want to work to keep your mind off what is happenning,but I think you should also think of yourself as Dian said.  You need all your strenght right now not only to take care of yourself,but Dustin and the rest of your family. I'll keep you and your family in prayer...stay strong..sending a million ((((hugz)))~~~~~Joanne

[dian07]

Oh my gosh.....if it's not one thing it's another ...... I am so sorry you and your family are going through all this ..... it's tough enough raising a family without mom having health issues.....life can really be tough.  You are the "mom" though and in this world of "family" you are not allowed to be sick.....you are the one who is supposed to "fix everything"...... that makes all this twice as tough on you!
You can't let that be true.....in order to take care of your family you must take care of yourself first.....not easy I know but necessary and true!  You will be able to reassure your husband and your children, and help Dustin regain lost ground, after you re-gain your strength and health.  Be good to yourself for their sake (and ours!).....I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this....please know you are in my thoughts and I do think of you often.  
Keep us posted and good luck!
Peace.
dian