Has anyone ever delt with the baby blues or psychosis? Personal question

[martikadragoon]

Like the title says, Has anyone delt with after birth depression(i'm in a preggo moment right now and can't remember the clinical name) or Psychosis?

It's a personal question I'm sorry and I know some ppl won't answer, but
I've heard if you have emotional problems or depression before/during pregnancy you may have an increased risk of the baby blues.

I have an increased risk because of depression as a child and teen (I was never treated but thought about committing suicide probably about 2-3 times. I cut also, but not like the little teenagers around here(socal) who do it for attention, I cut seriously, and hid it from EVERYONE. (Carlos my hubby noticed it a few times before and I stopped after that, I'm still tempted to do it if something huge happens like when we've had a big fight where things are destroyed.. ie: me or him breaking the others stuff which hasnt happened in a LONG time thank god) BTW I stopped cutting after a friend who had cut in school killed herself when we were 18(she OD'd purposefully)

But my doctor has advised my husband keep an eye on me for it. esp. because that sort of thing can lead to psychosis. I'm not worried about the blues, but about it progressing to psychosis.

[natemomma27]

ive dealt with depression from a very early age of 4 ( my mother passed away from a car accident)...needless to say i still battle it to this day and have been hospitalized for suicidal tendencies...ive also been diagnosed with bi-polar...i have 2 children and after each one i was closely monitored to help with any possible ppd...i didn't experience it with my 1st son, but i certainly did with my 2nd son and still do to this day (hes now 18mnths)...it hard, but it helps to have people to talk to who are supportive and understanding. best of luck and if you ever want to talk feel free to PM me :)

[sexyhot_dandy]

yes the loss of a child is very emotional i lost 2 i havent gotten over it yet i still grieve for my babies i just breakdown and cry for them i wanted to replace them and so i did i have one son and another one on the way my babies will never ever be forgotten i miss them so much i might go again since i always wanted a daughter i feel as though my life will never be complete until i have one it's like i have to get a girl speak to someone about ur depression it's goin to be hard but u need to depression takes a toll

[martikadragoon]

You need to talk to your OBGYN about this definitely, since the hormones affect your emotions. They can give you meds that are SAFE for pregnancy. you need to tell your doctor because it can get worse.

SERIOUSLY, talk to your doctor, and he/she can help you. K?

[evthing4reason]

I think i am depressed from losing my baby, i feel like i have nothing to live for, that i don't want to live, that i just want to go away into a big cave and disappear out of the world. But i also want to be pregnant again so ican't tell my Dr i need help because i don't want to go on any meds

[sexyhot_dandy]

if u take a look at my profile u would see my belly at 28wks most say u are so small but wat do they know i have a big boy in my small belly  he is makin me crazy wid them kicks in my ribs lol and my vagina this week am goin to take new pics since my birthday is wednesday all i want really is cake am a big kid when it comes to my birthday if i dont get a cake

[martikadragoon]

Congrats Sexyhot_dandy!! (I'm already getting that "hold my belly" feeling) it's like in this last WEEK my stomach has expanded inside and when I lay down I definitely have a belly, it's not almost flat anymore.

[sexyhot_dandy]

oops am 30 wks today 10 more to go my 35 wks sonogram will determine when my son comes i told the doctor at the end of May and my baby is over 7 pounds i want him out he is 4 pounds already the weight is killin me i can hardly walk i have to hold my belly

[martikadragoon]

if you've delt with any true depression before or during pregnancy, then you have an increased risk.. I"m not sure how much.

[Linzola1]

I have had a little taste of depression whilst pregnant. Does that mean that I am at a higher risk of having post partum?

[MOM23ANGELS25F]

I have had plenty of experience with this.. I am bi-polar and was not taking medication at the time I had my first 2..... I got it so bad, I wanted nothing to do with the two really... And I never knew why..I felt so horrible... But I didn't go to the dr. like I should have.. I guess I just didn't want to admit that something was wrong...... But, if your Dr puts you on medication, make sure you take it.. It won't hurt the baby..

[martikadragoon]

Stellkas~ thank you. I am not predicting that I'll have it, I really just wondered what how many mom's on here have actually gone thru that. It is nice to hear that it's not always the case (past depressing= ppd)

and sexyhot_dandy= I agree, lets keep our fingers crossed.

[stellkas]

I always dealt with depression as a teenager.  I never cut myself or anything like that.  I had more anger, depression, and suicidal ideation.  Not fun.   I felt the same as you so scared that I was going to go through post partum to some degree.   I thought I was doomed.  You know what is funny though?  I didn't have one bit of depression, only joy, and I am a mother of a three year old beautiful little girl and I haven't had any depression problems since giving birth.  My point here is that I am definately not you, we are different, but don't automatically assume you are doomed.  You might be just fine.  If you aren't seek medical attention and have someone aid you on getting on the right path, but have an open mind because it is not a definate either way!

[sexyhot_dandy]

i know its hard well am dealin wid the loss of a friend who died last year November it's takin a toll on me i haven't gotten over him yet i don't know if i will either it's that serious i really miss him he was always there for me we will be fine let's keep our fingers cross

[martikadragoon]

Sexyhot_dandy, See the problem is.. it's VERY tough to talk to someone if your depressed. I've never had a nervous breakdown or been esp. close (not in my opinion).. but I haven't had any depression during this pregnancy of course (other than sadness.. my step dad died, and in the beginning dh cheated.) but not overtly sad.

I just wanted stories of women who'd delt with this and how they were watched/treated. :)

Thanks for your story and everything, I really appreciate it.

[sexyhot_dandy]

u need to talk let people know how u feel dont keep nothin on the inside this is how my mother was she is still this way she had 2 nervous breakdown the last one was worst i couldnt find her i didnt want her near me i lied for her she would make me scared i resented this woman sorrry to say he would rough me up i was traumatic she was locked in cell in a mad house everytime i saw i broke down in tears it terrible but am tellin u please dont study anytin let it out but try to keep it together for ur baby am 20 wks on saturday i cry now and then

[martikadragoon]

I agree about bipolar disorder being used to loosely. Most teens deal with hormones like preggo women. I have always recognised it when I'm depressed cause I think things like

"if I could only just cut my arm/leg/whatever it would relieve this stress and pain" or " what would he/she/... do if I wasn't here anymore?" or "it would be better if I just slept all day and didn't go out."

But dh has witnessed me being depressed before... so I hope he's attentive. I'm gonna need all the emotional support I can get, and just want to focus on my baby and be HAPPY for the new life!

maybe I'll get lucky and won't have to deal with it.

[irrelevance]

Oh and, all kinds of mental issues run throughout both sides of my family. :( I was told at around age 13 that I suffered from bi-polar disorder, and clinical depression.. BUT, I think they use bi-polar disorder way too loosely to dismiss problems that almost all teenagers go through.. But I know that I am depressed, that is truly evident. I mean, not currently, I'm fine.. But my family has a history of bi-polar disorder, major to minor depression, dysthimia [a form of depression], possible sociopathic/anti-social behavior, and even schizophrenia. :(

[irrelevance]

I did not read the responses, ATM, but I am worried about this as well.. I never did things for attention, and I always tried hard to hide it.. But I have dealt with the same kinds of things, and have had depression on and off for some.. probably 4 years or so.. Maybe longer, I never really recognized it until I was diagnosed.. I never shared this with my doctor, and maybe I should... :/
But I hope you are okay, :( *best wishes*
And I hope I don't have to go through it, either. I want to be able to enjoy my new baby as much as possible, I don't want hormones to get in the way of that. =(

[martikadragoon]

Michele~ thank you for your response. I am not suffering from any depression right now(other than simple hormones.. but I don't get overly sad for extended periods of time.)

I wanted to hear what other mom's had gone thru. I should say I'd forgotten to mention I'm 20 weeks pregnant.. So I'm trying to think about the future. I will be under a TON of stress with my baby. (he has Down syndrome and therefor may have heart problems and mental retardation)

What sucks is I'm one of these that holds it in and doesn't tell people when I'm depressed. So I have CLEARLY let my hubby know what I do when I'm depressed and what to look for.. I"m not sure if my dr. takes it seriously tho.

Thanks for sharing your experience.

Loismmwallace~ yes I have a risk of it. I definitely know this. my mom wants to keep an eye on me too (she knows about my past depression, I told  her once I was past those times)
and thnx. for some reason I couldn't remember Post Partum Depression earlier. lol

[Michele, Katy, TX]

I always suffer from post-partum depression.  I have 5 kids and get it each time.  I always know it is coming.  So, I leave the hospital with an anti-depression prescription in hand.  I get it filled on my way home from the hospital.  It is awful for me.  But I have never had the psychosis part of it.  My best advice is to talk very honestly with your doctor so he knows what you are up against.  I'm sure he will help you any way he can.  If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am always here.  I know it can be scary.

Take care and I will keep you and your baby in my prayers.

[sexyhot_dandy]

so far am doin good i try to get out the house and get some fresh air instead stayin in bed with the curtain closed in complete darkness i open them up and let the light in which is a good sign thanks for the encouragement

[loismwallace]

My son was depressed a few years ago. Had to see someone for it. Me and his Dad was divorced and both starting new relationships and he didn't cope with it too well.  I learned a lot about depression and that there are different kinds of depression. He was also on Concerta for ADHD and I took him off of it along with counseling and he got better. I myself have only been depressed once when I got out my first relationship after my divorce. I was devastated. Couldn't eat, sleep or anything. I've only felt that way once in my life so I really can't imagine what you and martikadragoon must be going trough. Just don't ignore the signs and stay in touch with someone. Good freinds can put you in check real quick.....Hope all goes well for you.

[sexyhot_dandy]

u are right cause my father often tells me he thinks there is something wrong wid me am like wat do u expect if my mother and her family are crazy u and ur family are crazy to dont u not think the kids will be crazy to crazy is just a figure of speech word since am from Barbados i some wat knows wat she is goin through because i was there i tied to kill myself whole nine yards i ran wild like it was the end of the whole i cant even remember how i got to where i am right now cause most of my childhood memories are gone i cant remember certain things i went to a shrink i dont even know wat he said about me i try not to think about the pass only the future but am preparin myself for post partum depression am goin to make sure someone is there with me it's no fun i find myself cryin now and now for no appperent reason

[loismwallace]

Based on martikadragoon comments in this post, she is at higher risk for Post-partum depression. She even said her Dr told her husband to keep and eye on her. By what she has shared, she is a good canidate for a nervous breakdown. There are those that get depressed when certain circumstance arise and there are those that are clinically depressed and based on what she has shared, she may very well be and need to seek the help of her Dr. Some anti-depresants can be taken while pregnant....