I don't know if it's just serious depression hitting me hard and just wanting this baby out, or if I just seriously need to walk away for days to clear my head. I might sound a little wacky or out of it. I'm trying to enjoying this pregnancy as much as I can, but it seems like with this pregnancy everything seems wrong and that I am serously grouchy. Now that I have about a month or less, I feel like my mind is full. Bf and I are going through some things. I think he has also got my grouchy side affects lol. But he seems to be more and more grouchier as well. I understand that I'm really close to haveing this baby and anything can set me off, but dang it *****. Not only that I just have this really bad feeling that I'm going to go into labor way early. I'm due May 10th but with my other two I go in about 2wks before my due date. So that would set me to the end of April early May. Then my manager is on vaction and doesn't get back till May 4th. So I keep praying that all this stress doesn't put me into the hospital before that. I just feel that I want to be alone, just me and my kids for a while. I love my bf and everything but it just makes me so depressed. I hate it. Sorry guys I know this is a "help" form but I feel really comfortable comeing here.