fed up + ranting!!

[laurenboycexo]

24 weeks pregnant and im such an outcast in my family, my mum fell really ill two years ago and I was by her side day in day out whilst she was on life support. I nearly lost my job. I lost all my friends. So anyways she came back round and got back on her feet. And yet to this day she still uses her illness as an excuse for things. She won't clean up much,  she wont go to the shops, she spends majority of the time in bed, and now she doesnt like the fact that I have my own family to think about. This week alone ive been to shops god knows how many times, fed the animal's, been on my hands and knees scrubbing the bathroom floor.and now ive been expected to pick floor muck up with my bare hands. And yet she still doesn't appreciate anything I do. But yet my brother 25 is an alcoholic, he threatens people and family all the time drinks every single night and yet the sum still shines out of his ***! And then to top it off my mums partner comes down on a weekend and starts on me and my mum just sits there and doesn't say a word. She has pneumonia, and is on antibiotics and im trying to help as much as I can but yet she is sitting there getting pissed up nearly every night, im 24 weeks pregnant and really do not need the stress! Im so done!! :'(

[mandi010111]

Honestly if no one appreciates you then dont help they realize whqt thwy have lost and start regreting how they treated you. This happend to me and i got fed up and left . I stop helping because i have my own family now that i have to worry about . Its not fair to you that u do everything putting stress on you n baby cuz theyre ungrateful. I underatand its your mother you love her and want to help but your alcholic brother can step in. You have you own family now and a little one that needs Your time . Hope all works out for you .

[laurenboycexo]

People may think im been horrible but from 13 I have had to put up with all my family discrediting me, I have had my brother try to beat me up when I was younger, he chased me with knifes and done god knows what. I was seven years old when my mum told me she had a year to live which she did to frighten me, she used to pass out on the bathroom floor. I had to learn phone numbers from the age of five so I could get in touch with people when needed. And don't get me wrong I am older now and everything has changed but not as much as it should of! I wish she would just take care of herself, I dont want to walk in one day and find her not alive anymore. It is my constant worry!!