By reading this made tears my eyes...I'm sorry for ur loss I will be praying for u & ur fam...
Hey dear...
Thank you so much... i am in the process of recovery and yeahhh hard to admit but i am walking zombie..!! still not make it thru even after week plus has passed.. :(( and this pain of c-sec make it worst!!! i always think of Baby Aidan at the pain and soon to be scar but my heart its really painful... i hope as time goes i will like what you mention just at this now i not sure what will be the best ways for me... :(( i am really devastated right now... :((
Rachel, I am so sorry you had to go through this. Having been through it myself it breaks my heart to see someone else have to experience the pain of losing a child. Please, please, please, take the time you need to grieve. It doesn't matter how long a child is in your life, the pain is still intense and it takes time to come to terms with. There will be hate, anger, pain, blame (at yourself and others), depression and there will even be days in between of somewhat happiness. As you go through the processes, you will find that slowly those "happy" days will come more frequently. In time, the pain begins to subside, although it never goes away completely, it becomes easier to bare. You find ways to cope. I have a special candle that I light on my sons birthday every year. That's one of my ways. Some people bake a cake. Whatever works for YOU, there is no right or wrong. I pray that you and your husband stay strong through this becuase grief can affect each of you differently. I pray that this brings you closer together in your relationship. Please know that I am thinking about you.
Cassie