Ok... so I had an OB appointment on Monday, but my OB is not in this week so I saw the midwife who I absolutely love by the way, but I'm not sure that this was the appt that I wanted to see her for... Then again I much rather see her than any of the other Dr's in the practice ( I really only like MY dr. and the midwife... which *****, cause its seems that they are never on call when you go into labor LOL... but oh well)
It was just a routine appt, she did a quick u/s just to ease my mind cause I was only 9 1/2 weeks or so and they usually don't even try the doppler till 12 weeks (although I have found our baby every day with my doppler since 9 weeks 1 day!!). We saw our little bean... not very clearly but (s)he was there!! Little heart beating away!! It kinda bothered me though because I've been hanging on to measurements (I've been measuring a little small) and when the midwife measured the baby it came up 15 weeks 6 days!!!!! Obviously a mistake... but I really would have liked to know true measurements...
I was supposed to find out when I get my cerclage put in at that appointment... Ugh!! I'm so scared over that... I know they say its best because even though they can't say for sure that I have i/c after having the cerclage I carried DS to term (or would have if I wasnt induced at 36 weeks for high bp). But its surgery... and surgery is scary... and they have to do a spinal... and I don't do well with those... when I had my last cerclage the spinal dropped my bp to 70/40 and then when I had an epidural I dropped to 60/20!! Strangely enough they were trying to drop my bp with the epidural... thats why they did it... but not that low and it took them awhile to get it back. And not only that, but I'm so scared that the cerclage and the spinal block will agravate my neurological condition even more! UGH!
My Dr. said that the b/p drop is ok and normal in 15-25% of people who get an epidural/block and that she will have ephedrine standing by... but I'm still really scared!! And then I'm scared of getting it taken out!! For some reason (cruel joke maybe!?) they block all of your nerves and prop you up like a stuffed turkey to put it in... but NO numbing to get it out!? Last time I had to beg for pain meds but it didn't help... and I was having contractions so I couldn't wait for my OB to do it I had to have it done by some rough resident... lets just say OOOOOUUUUUCCCCHHHHHH!!!!!
Anyway... turns out they didn't even have my cerclage date scheduled when I went to my appt... they said that my OB will be back Aug 18th (Mine and Hubby's 3 year aniversary by the way) and I should come see her again then (I will be 12 weeks!! They said they want to do the cerclage between 12-13!!) So now I'm stressed too because I don't know how much time I will have to plan a sitter for the kids while I'm gone for half the day, and I have no idea what recovery will be like (I was already on bedrest last time for an SCH and then an emergency cerclage is always bedrest) or what kind of restrictions I will have... and the midwife said I would have to talk to my Dr. about that when she gets back... so...
Oh... I almost wish I could talk my OB into just monitoring my cervix again and only putting in the cerclage if I have shortening again... but I know that might not be the best idea...
Anyway... sorry for rambling ladies... I just can't stop stressing over this...