Very Mad at myself and disapointed

[melissa347]

well I am really upset with myself i didnt get off the percocets and didnt go get on the subutex. My dr said to me today ur tox screen came out posative for drugs I wanted to cry. They said they have to red flag my file to make sure when the baby it born they have a social worker come talk to me. Im afraid there going to take my baby and ill be going home alone the day i come home even if i get on subutex now and get help i hate myself right now I just wanna curl up in a ball and die. I dont know what to do I have 2 weeks left. I really hate myself right now...... But i am going tomorrow and get in with a clinic. its late i know but im hopeing not to late... Lord help me.

[Clysta]

If you could get off them yourself, you would have done so long ago. You should never have told them you had stopped or could stop alone. Addiction rarely works that way, and most need help to get through it.

Even if you don't have support in your family, it can still be done. You let it get you down and you CAN quit, even if you don't have that support. You had your doctors and that should have been all you needed. Regardless of support this is your child on the line now. NOTHING should be more important than that.

[melissa347]

I did tell my doctor weeks ago I got off pills but went back I dont know what to do now i told him then i dont need the subutex cus i can do it alone but i cant I take 1-2 pills a day 5mg and I know i can get off them but i dont have the support here to do so. I maybe need to get in patcient help i dont know i need to do something right away... I do want to stop so bad and for my baby more then me.

[Clysta]

I thought that you had seen your doctor and gotten a plan together about getting this under control? Did that not work?

[MsKitty84]

One of the biggest problems with taking drugs like Percocet when you're pregnant is that that stuff is going to your baby too. It's not known whether Percocet causes permanent harm, but it has been linked to breathing problems and drug withdrawal symptoms in newborns.

From what you said about the subutex, it sounds like you know that you have a problem. You need to understand that if you keep taking Percocet after the doctor has asked you to stop, you are giving your problem to that baby. Stopping now won't undo it, but you can avoid making it worse.

The social worker's job is to make sure that your baby is OK and that you are going to be a good mother. They aren't out to scare you or take your child away for no reason. If you're serious about getting off Percocet and being a responsible mom, talk to your doctor about the next step, and consult an attorney.

[trying43]

Was the dr aware you were on them?   I think if u go to the clinic now it will show u r doing something.  I don't think they will take the baby.  Try not to worry.  Things will be ok.  Good luck to u.