is it just me

[judylacar]

or after you have a miscarriage, you really want to be pregnant more than anything in the world?

[aeslehc15]

I am in the same boat, all I want is to be pregnant. Everytime I walk out the door I feel like there is someone standing there waving it in my face, either at the grocery store or church .... whatever.

We miscarried Christmas Eve and are going to try try again come January. I think knowing that we arn't waiting has made it easier for me to feel better about the miscarriage. I had a good chat with a friend the other night who has been through it as well and it made me realize that there is nothing that can be done about it and to keep trying.

[cindy82]

im right there with yall, i m/c 6 weeks ago this monday. i was hoping like crazy af would not show its face. my doc said to wait 2 cycles but i dont wanna wait that. i wanna be preg NOW!  i should be preg now. thats how i feel. lol, guess im crazy ------

[judylacar]

Oh no, you are perfectly fine, my hubby is a Christian singer, so I am right there with you. I too blamed myself, but with the help of njeosys she helped me to realize nothing I could have done or not done would have saved this pregnancy.

[njeosys]

It's never selfish to want a baby. We are built and designed by God to want babies, especially as women.

Shell24, you're very right about that. I believe that, too.

[Shell24]

No, I don't think you're complaining, and I really know how you feel. The doctors tell you, there's nothing you can do about a miscarraige, but I blamed myself a lot. Honestly, I really made myself believe that I miscarried because this baby just couldn't develop and instead of giving the baby a life of possible misery and deformity, God decided he would spare that baby. Sorry if this is all religious and stuff, but it helped me a lot.

[judylacar]

I know and I do and having another didn't bother me until I m/c. I know that I am blessed and I dont mean to complain, I know there are a lot of women that would do anything just to have one healthy one and my heart breaks for every one of them also. We have been trying for about a year or so, but trying just naturally.

[Shell24]

You're sooooo lucky to have two kids, God will give you another one when he's ready. You'll be fine. At least you know that you're able to have healthy babies, think of all of the ladies who have been trying so long and don't know what's wrong with them. How long have you been trying for the 3rd one?

[judylacar]

YES! I like that better too, our primal need to reproduce, that sounds so good, lol, thanks for that! I am OV I think, and was so hoping for the chance to BD tomorrow as I am meeting my hubby, he travels a lot, but I can't go until Monday now and I am scared that my chance will be over, it just isn't fair sometimes. And that is what is worse, all these emotions and anxiety like you said and all for really nothing cause there is nothing you can do about it and that is even worse, being a mother, you have that natural instinct to want to be in control, ugh, this just is horrible.

[Shell24]

Maybe it's not being selfish, its just our primal need to reproduce - (I like the way that sounds better). I feel like crying today too, I just keep getting these waves of anxiety, that makes me so frustrated for nothing.

[depressed748]

Definitely yes that's what I want so bad.

[judylacar]

NO, NOT AT ALL, I feel that way too and today especially, dont know why, but I have been crying like a baby all day long and wasnt sure what was wrong with me and I was saying bed time prayers with my 2 babies now and it just hit me like a ton of bricks, they aren't babies anymore and I have this selfish need to prove to myself that I can be a mommy again to a baby baby. Now how weird does that sound?

[Shell24]

Oh my gosh...YEAH!!! I kind of felt like I had to prove it to myself that I could do it. That probably sounds weird.....