This is not really a question, just need to vent. I went to Walmart with my husband and 3-week old baby and he was in his car seat and we put the car seat on a table (at McDonalds) and I took him out to breastfeed him (discreetly) and then I put him back in his car seat but didn't secure the restraints or belts... well my husband started rocking him to get him to sleep and the car seat simply fell down on the ground and my baby boy went flying out and landed face down on the ground. I've never been so frightened in my life, I didn't think and just scooped him up, I was hysterical, yelling for someone to call 911, the ambulance came and took us to the emergency, I was freaking out of my mind, he didn't have any bleeding, no cuts, nothing seemed out of place, he was crying at first when I picked him up but then he calmed down. My husband followed the ambulance in our car.
The baby did cry in the ambulance because they put him in a stabilizing gear to prevent further neck and back injuries... they put a tiny oxygen mask on him, I was just aside myself
the trauma team at the ER was waiting for us, they all hovered over him, took his vital signs, sent him up for a million X-Rays through which he cried and screamed... but he didn't have a scratch on him, nothing. We ended up staying at the hospital for observation for 24 hours with him, he's been feeding well and sleeping great, the doctors came every hour to check his vital signs (temp, pipul dilatation, heartbeat, ...)
I really feel like such a bad mom because this wasn't an accident, it was preventable, it was the result of careless and irresponsible behavior... don't get sloppy and cut corners like I did because the guilt I have to carry with me is endless, I can't forgive myself, I really thought he would be paralyzed or dead, I truly believed that. Every time I close my eyes, I can see his little body flying and landing on the ground, it's mind-numbing. The images keep playing over and over.
PLEASE USE THE RESTRAINTS AT ALL TIMES WHEN USING A SWING OR CAR SEAT. Don't get lazy like I did, it almost cost me the love of my life, one of my kids.