Does this make me a bad person?

[shi923]

So I really need you girls opinion as I feel so bad for feeling this way. I am 30 weeks and my fiancé has a couple other children ranges from ages 5 to 9. I have one 8 year old. He is a great father and cherishes his kids and my 1. So since finding out I was pregnant his exwife of course has been acting ******. We went from having the kids every weekend to not at all. We haven't seen them since February and it had crushed him. I miss them also. I've been very fatigued and Moody lately and have been in pain. so his exwife if finally coming around and is letting  the kids come over for the weekend. Now hs works night and day most of the time so they'll be here with me and im excited we get to finally get them again. He is very excited. I just worry because I don't know how much patience ill have right now at this point in my pregnancy. My son is 8 and is pretty much self sufficient hell play a game with me and doesn't require a lot of repeating myself. When his kids come over they are usually very needy and loud. They fight a lot about everything and im usually very patient,just right now Im scared of getting fed up with them quickly and that causing tension between us. What should I do? I can't tell him oh know you haven't seen them in awhile but I can't deal with them right now. It seems so selfish of me. I feel like going outta town and totally avoiding the issue. Help.

[mrssandefur]

I totally understand! I have a 2 yr old who I share custody with my exhusband and sometimes I just wish he wasn't so judgmental and wouldn't jump to (she doesn't wanna spend time with him) and I could ask him to take him early, cause like when my BIL and SIL are home I literally wont see my 1 yr old until bedtime lol but my 2 yr old even though he's very self sufficient he doesn't like playing with bubbu and my BIL and I can't take a nap or anything like I'd like to.

[shi923]

@Jenn yeah its a crazy feeling cuz you don't wanna say it to him and look like the evil step mom..lol its just not wanting to do a lot of back and forth right now. If he was going to be home then that's different. I cnt just sleep all day like I want.

[shi923]

I think its just the weekend you really never know with her. Your right there is a playground where we just moved to. I could send them over there.,I just feel so bad. I rather just lie in my bed you know

[mrssandefur]

Is it just for a weekend or longer? Maybe try planning stuff put side the house even if its at a playground or the pool or something, some would have to go with you of course as I know this far along its hard to chase kids lol but maybe just plan a bunch of stuff you.know they'll enjoy and.maybe that'll lessen the arguments and stress?

[JennBism]

Makes me feel a lil better hearing you say that. My husbands ex hates that he is happy so she hasnt let him see ia kids for over a year. We are getting to pick them up next week for 2 Weeks & I am freaking out too! I have been so tired with this pregnancy I am so worried about being able to keep up with them!