Feel like a jerk

[Factorymomma]

I'm on prozac for peripartum depression (I'm 18wks).  Well I forgot to take it the past two days, but felt pretty good.  Then I knocked over my cup of water in my kitchen.  Water all over me and the floor.  My boyfriend came to check on me because he heard all the commotion.  I was shaking, couldn't move, and asked for a towel trying not to burst into tears.  He got me one and I started bawling.  He tried to joke with me saying," oh hun, it's just water!  We have more than enough" and smiled.  I went off.  Started yelling at him,"you think I like crying for no reason?  Do you think I really give a sh*t about this water??"  So he got pissed and asked me if I forgot to take my prozac and I told him yes two days worth.  I cried for half an hour.  I apologized because thats not me. He knows that.  But I feel horrible.  He tried to make me feel better and I pretty much slapped him in the face.  

[mommybear0710]

I know how you feel after our first child was born I had severe postpartum depression and we went through all the fighting and crying, in fact my husband had to threaten to take our baby and leave me before I got help for it and he always knew I loved him and things would get better and now 4 years later we are happily married and expecting #3 so it does get better just keep taking your meds and keep your head up.

[MamaBear0612]

He knows your history, and he knows you're pregnant. He'll understand. Don't be so hard on yourself...I've snapped my ex's (my child's father) head off a time or two and I don't even have a history of depression. :)

My brother was bipolar, and I wouldn't take back any moment I ever had with him, good or bad. Love is like that. So remember, tomorrow is a new day, and forgiveness of self and others is important. Ask him to give you a hug and you'll feel better.