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If life were easy it wouldn't be hard
I don't even know where to begin. I read this board all the time and I try to stay away from the sad posts. Not because they don't deserve validation, but because sometimes they can be extremely sad. This is one of those posts.
Today I got the worst call that anyone ever wants to receive in their life time. The call that everyone thinks about when someone is calling them at an hour. It was my mom at 8am. She was crying and somehow through her tears she was able to get out that something bad happened.
"Amanda, something bad has happened"
"What is it mom? What's the matter? Did D.J. do it? (my brother has been on suicide watch for weeks now)
"No. . . . .. Spencer found Sage dead in his crib this morning."
"No, no, no, no,no......this is a joke right"
"No honey he's gone".
"I'm on my way over".
I then called my husband and I broke down in the hallway by my office. My boss and coworkers just stood there not knowing what to do. My husband finally showed up to get me, and the 43 mile drive was the longest drive ever. I didn't want to be here, but I didn't want to be anywhere else.
The cops, firetrucks, were still here, but the house was now a crime scene. There were about 15 detectives upstairs. With all the family being here the house was filled with about 45 people. We all just filled the living room and kitchen. Sage was still upstairs, and we hadn't been able to see or hold him.
Spencer found him, still warm. Called for Chris to call 911 and started CPR. 45 minutes later the paramedics showed up and they took over from there. Things get a bit blurry from here, but I was here about an hour when they finally released the scene. They allowed my dad to carry him down stairs and we each got to hold our angel one last time.
Now. . . . when he was born I had undergone my first IUI, and it didn't take. I was so upset, and it was everything I had to be in the delivery room when he was born. I wanted a baby so bad. It was at that point in time the hardest thing I ever had to do. I wouldn't have missed being there for anything in the world.
2 weeks later I did another IUI and this time it worked, and John and I were pregnant. Now I am 35 weeks and my precious little nephew is home with his Heavenly Father. I am honored that I got to be in the presence of such a glorious spirit, for these last 8 months. I don't know how or even where to begin the healing process. I don't even know what to say to my sister and her husband.
I hadn't realized it, but if the Lord had blessed us with our baby the first IUI, we would be having her now during this time instead of in a month. I just need to be here for them. Please pray for them to have comfort at this time. I don't know what else to ask for.
My Little Sage Brush, I love you with all my heart and soul! Be at peace, and I'll see you when my time has come.
Today I got the worst call that anyone ever wants to receive in their life time. The call that everyone thinks about when someone is calling them at an hour. It was my mom at 8am. She was crying and somehow through her tears she was able to get out that something bad happened.
"Amanda, something bad has happened"
"What is it mom? What's the matter? Did D.J. do it? (my brother has been on suicide watch for weeks now)
"No. . . . .. Spencer found Sage dead in his crib this morning."
"No, no, no, no,no......this is a joke right"
"No honey he's gone".
"I'm on my way over".
I then called my husband and I broke down in the hallway by my office. My boss and coworkers just stood there not knowing what to do. My husband finally showed up to get me, and the 43 mile drive was the longest drive ever. I didn't want to be here, but I didn't want to be anywhere else.
The cops, firetrucks, were still here, but the house was now a crime scene. There were about 15 detectives upstairs. With all the family being here the house was filled with about 45 people. We all just filled the living room and kitchen. Sage was still upstairs, and we hadn't been able to see or hold him.
Spencer found him, still warm. Called for Chris to call 911 and started CPR. 45 minutes later the paramedics showed up and they took over from there. Things get a bit blurry from here, but I was here about an hour when they finally released the scene. They allowed my dad to carry him down stairs and we each got to hold our angel one last time.
Now. . . . when he was born I had undergone my first IUI, and it didn't take. I was so upset, and it was everything I had to be in the delivery room when he was born. I wanted a baby so bad. It was at that point in time the hardest thing I ever had to do. I wouldn't have missed being there for anything in the world.
2 weeks later I did another IUI and this time it worked, and John and I were pregnant. Now I am 35 weeks and my precious little nephew is home with his Heavenly Father. I am honored that I got to be in the presence of such a glorious spirit, for these last 8 months. I don't know how or even where to begin the healing process. I don't even know what to say to my sister and her husband.
I hadn't realized it, but if the Lord had blessed us with our baby the first IUI, we would be having her now during this time instead of in a month. I just need to be here for them. Please pray for them to have comfort at this time. I don't know what else to ask for.
My Little Sage Brush, I love you with all my heart and soul! Be at peace, and I'll see you when my time has come.
i am so sorry my prayers are with you and your family. I do not even know what to write im in shock i cant even imagine the pain. i am so sorry.
Your poor family. Losing a baby no matter what age is hard. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I am so sorry for you and your family, I will keep you guys in prayers. I cant imagine the heartache you are all feeling.
That is heartbreaking, i am so sorry for your loss, the only thing you can do is be there for her, my aunt lost a child at 5 months and all i could do is be there for her, no one wants to hear it will be ok, jus give lots of hugz, cry with her and be a good listener.
I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
I am very sorry for your loss. It is just unbelievably sad, and please know that you have "strangers" such as myself praying for you and your family. It is wonderful that your family is close, because you will all need eachother during this difficult time.
Again, I'm so very sorry. :-(
Again, I'm so very sorry. :-(
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