update

[rachie204]

I tested again this morning.  I had one solid line(control line) and again one very very very faint line that may or may not have been there or I may have imagined.  I was really hoping I would get a BFP this morning.  And my hubby was hoping also....he woke me up and the first thing he said was " rachel...go take a test"  It was very sweet.  I so badly want to be able to tell him we are pregnant.  Every time we talk about it he smiles soooo big.  I really want to give him a baby.  I want to be pregnant with him and have him by my side.  I can't hardley stand it.  I am going to clean house and then go do some shopping...that always gets my mind off things.  Tomorrow my period will be due if I was on a  28 day cycle.  Saturday on a 30.  I am probably on neither so it makes it all the more frustrating.  I wish my symptoms would get stronger or something so that I could keep my hopes up. So far I have had Nasuea on and off all day every day....getting sleepy easier, cramping, low back pain,lots of cm, frequent headaches,constipation,and I have been having trouble sleeping the last 2 nights....but that could be caused by other things i guess.  I just wish my boobs hurt.  The last time I was pregnant with the m/c I knew even before I got a BFP b/c my boobs hurt sooo bad.  I didnt even need the test.  I really wish they would start being painful.  I swear they are bigger.  Anways I wanted to let yall know what was going on.  I am going to go pray for patience and try to brace myself.  

[rachie204]

thanks mel that is really good to hear.  Are you pregnant now?  IF so how far along?

[mel382738]

WHOA! Relax for a minute and breath! I don't know where you got the 10dpo thing-but that's pretty inaccurate- considering it can take a fertilized egg 5-6 days to begin implantation! Sooo if you ovulated when you say you did then and sperm caught the eggie-it may have only implanted a week or so ago. Most women don't get a BFP until they are practically 6 weeks along!
Like me-for example- I ovulated somewhere between Aug 11-16th (I have a 31 day cycle) and got a BFP Sept 5th! I had my first "wave" of nausea on Sept 4th. When I got the BFP, I was already 10 days LATE for my period. I even took a test the day before my period was due and the day my period was due-both BFN. You just gotta let that hormone build up sweetie.........enjoy the holiday and stop STRESSING! Actually HAVE some faith that god will do what's best!

[rachie204]

thanks.  I am trying so hard to just let it go and let God take care of everything.  

[Michele, Katy, TX]

I have seen many of your posts and know how badly you want this.  I really hope it happens for you!!  Pray hard and trust God.  He has his plan for you.  He had his plan for me and it was not what I expected at all!!  Your line will be darker soon!!

[rachie204]

thanks so much for the encouragement.  I really hope so.  We want to be soo bad.  I hope it happens very soon.  Thanks again.  

[Fourpaws]

I bet your are pregnant! Especially if you saw a faint line (even with straining your eyes!) It will get darker, your probably just way too early!! Good luck and I have a feeling its going to happen very soon!

[rachie204]

I know i'm not suppose to worry...it's just that i'm a control freak....God know that...we are working on it. :)  I think that is why I am going trough this...not just this month but last month and when i had the m/c.  God is trying to show me something, and I am trying to hard to listen.  Yeah, i'm about to clean and then go shopping.  I think me and my son are going to go buy stuff to make a "candy land" christmas wreath.  Maybe I can talk my hubby into taking me for a ride on the motorcycle tonight...and maybe dinner....so i can relax.  I was going to go get a pedicure but then you shouldnt do that if you are preggers.  I have also been wanting to get a tattoo but have been holding out incase i am pregnant.  

[beautifullychaotic]

Ok dont stress...just breathe...try soo hard not to think about it. Go shopping like you said.  Do something to get your mind off it. Cause if you do then you wont get AF at all if you arent.  Things will be ok. You arent supposed to worry if you know that its in God's hands.  Good luck!

[rachie204]

thanks beautifullychaotic....I hope so.

[rachie204]

i am so worried.  I am trying not to but it's very difficult.  I need to know if I am preggers or not b.c my last pregnancy ended in m/c due to low progestrone they think it was around 3 or 4 weeks.  I am not on anything to fix that yet and I really dont want it to happen again.  I was reading this thing that said your HCG should be at 25 at 10 dpo.  The last day we had sex around ovulation was the10th.  It's already past 10 days and I am not getting a positive hpt.  That makes me worry that either I was preg and it isnt developing like lasttime or i am not at all..  I am so sick of this emotional rollarcoster.  I'm about ready to just get off.  Coastiewife..I hope you get your bfp very soon.

[beautifullychaotic]

I think you are rachie...you have to be. ..thats a sign from him I think....

[Coastiewife]

I feel you.. I have been eating toast and jelly for like three days..lol.. I never eat jelly! Hopefully that is good for us!

[rachie204]

thanks girls.  I was in my kitchen fixing my son some breakfast (were late sleepers :) ) anways while i was fixing his toast I prayed that God would either give me a BFP, have AF come or atleast get some strong symptoms where I really felt like I was pregnant.  And if not to give me a peace to not think about all of it.  Anyways a few seconds after praying I got very sick to my stomach and then I was going to fix myself some toast but the sound of it made me ill and i looked in the kitchen and the only thing i felt like i wanted was broccoli and cheese rice. So that is what I am eating for my breakfast :)

[mo41486]

Best of luck to you.

[Barbs123]

http://www.fertilityplus.org/faq/hpt.html
This website will answer lots of hpt questions. I also have very slightly sore boobies, just slightly, a little nausea and tiredness and dizziness, and I also got a faint positive last night. I am going to test again today. I should wait till tomorrow morning but i can't. Good luck to you!! A faint positive is always a positive!!!!

[silver82]

Hi rachel i wish you all the best sweety i really hope u r. LOVE RACHEL XX

[beautifullychaotic]

Hang in there....it will happen!  If it hasnt already.  ;)

[rachie204]

thanks

[honey1982]

yeah have a wonderful  happy thanksgiving rachie

[mamaofonetrying42]

I wish you the best. You'll get there!!!