Very Scared :( More answers please?

[FireFly10]

Hi, I am 20 ears old and am, just as it says in my title, very, very scared. Even Suicidal. My period is almost 3 weeks late now (Dec 9-Dec 14 last period recorded) However, I have very complicated circumstances and results that confuse me and just wanted some input.

Well, here's the whole story.

My boyfriend and I had been fooling around since August and although he'd never been inside me or even ejaculated near my vagina, (just sometimes on my chest and tummy) I was always scared some pre-*** might have gotten inside so I'd buy the Plan B morning pill every time I even suspected something might happen. I took this very regularly b/c we fooled around too much....I know I'm stupid. I bought it about twice a month for the next 5 months. There was a week I took two doses of it about 5 days apart. As you can imagine and to my naiveness I experienced drastic changes in my cycle- my period would come about 10-15 days apart and at first scared me but I realized that the pill was probably changing it up and as long as my period came I didn't care. However, my last period came after 21 days which scared me after day 15 passed and no period, but 6 days later, regular period. I told my boyfriend we HAD to calm things down I was sick of worrying so much every time. After that Dec 17 and 20th I stayed with him and we fooled around again to my disappointment in both of us- although this time he never even got on top of me, I just jacked him off and he came onto his stomach and that was that so although I was guilt stricken I felt no need to buy the pill. Sadly, Dec 25th, we fooled around again (i'm about to kill myself for it) but I didnt even take off my panties and he didn't take off his shorts although I sat right down on his penis but of course it didnt even begin to penetrate because of all the clothing in the way. Again no real need I felt to buy the pill. But now I am 2 almost 3 weeks late (from the fact my last period was Dec 9) and I do not know if it is because I haven't taken that damn pill since the end of November at Thanksgiving and so my cycle is trying to figure itself out again or am I pregnant?

Part 2
The last 2 weeks I've had a increase in vaginal fluid, and it acts like ovulation/fertile fluid it started watery then got sticky and then stretchy (like btwn your index finger/thumb) but it's been like this for the last 2 weeks. No real other symptoms except some cramping and irritability I've taken 5 preg tests and all are negative. I really feel like it just is my body trying to re-figure out its own menstrual cycle again and after taking that damn  pill for almost 6 months i've just completely trashed my hormones and internal body clock

but still any advice or thought? (besides you stupid *****, just get a condom and real birth control)
I really want to buy the pill again just to see if It'd jump start my hormones to force a period out of me and after that I can rest as peace and then let my body reconfigure itself

Epilogue: My boyfriend and I have stopped fooling around for good. We're both struggling Christians and have each our own issues (mine language -as you can read, and lust) and we're seeing a relationship counselor and haven't fooled around since Christmas night- it's gotten a lot better and temptation has become a lot less of an issue. I only pray we can continue the way God wants us to go

[KellyA74]

It's not silly.....They are genuine concerns.....Let us know!  

[FireFly10]

Yeah sorry guys, I just wanted to cast my net out again to see if I got any different responses but I think I feel better so I will update y'all with my silliness

Thank you all for your awesome responses

FireFly

[L00KING4_ANEW]

Your not pregnant. You should listen to these girls if your really worried about it.
Their are ways around getting pregnant. And just fooling around can be fun!



But, I also think that trying to stop right now is cool too. It's your decision and your life.

[KellyA74]

I think the post was under the same name but I only saw one reply to it>>>>  Unless it went thru 2x and the other is on page 2 or something.....?????

[irrelevance]

I agree with everyone else, but didn't you post this already yesterday, or the day before? and get plenty of answers? I swear I saw it under a different post name.... hmm

[MOM23ANGELS25F]

FireFly,
Your not pregnant...Taking that pill is messing up your body's natural cycle...And you don't have to stop fooling around with your boyfriend, if you don't want to.. Just be careful... You cannot get pregnant with clothes on...... If your going to have sex, then use a condem even spermicidal jelly that will kill the sperm.... :-)

[KellyA74]

you sound like a very intelligent person who is in tune with your body and have a great knowledge of the reproductive cycle...On top of that, some of your comments made me giggle (not laughing AT you but laughing WITH you), such as calling yourself a stupid***...I call myself names like that all the time...so it made me laugh!   It sounds like you haven't engaged in any activity in quite some time that would case a pregnancy (unless I missed something in there)...Like you said, it's probably just your body trying to get back on track after taking Plan B......Plus, you've had multiple negative tests.......If you want to lie this to rest though, go to any clinic and have bloodwork done to confirm one way or the other.......
As far as the depression (and talk of suicide) goes, it sounds like you've already taken many steps in the right direction to resolve that actions that seem to be making you feel this way....So I hope you're on the mends (that talk worries me though)......
Keep up posted....Lots of luck to you and take care!

[law84]

Obviously you cant have sex and you fool around but you cant get pregnant if the semen is no where near you vagina.

It is bad to take the morning after pill to many times it can cause alot of trouble inside, and will irregulate your periods. So stay away from the pill and only take if you need to (after you have sex and married).