Venting

[K_necole]

I just found out that my "bf" has a one year old son. I knew of his two other kids, now I'm finding out that he got the mother of his second child pregnant. our kids will be 3 months apart. I'm due in 2 months. My pregnancy has already been horrible to the point where I wanted to purposely fall & harm the baby. I'm super stressed & I honestly wouldn't care if anything happened to the baby . Am I a bad person? I feel horrible that I think/feel this way idk what to do. HELLLLPPPPP !

I'm thinking of giving the baby up for adoption because of my thoughts.

[rdeli]

Hon, you are so lucky you can carry a precious
Baby. Life is tough, but hold on to that little one. At the end you will be happy to have a child.

[simplykellyann]

Therapy. Get a therapist! My therapist is a life saver, I've never supported the idea of therapy and Ive never acknowledged the whole "religion" thing, but I have a history of clinical depression and its no secret that raging hormones can't send even the most optimistic mind positively reeling! I've had horrible thought as well. Open up to an outsider, a professional outsider. Never hold things like this in, work through it. Keep in mind that Post partum is an evil thing. Work through this now, you'd be surprised at how much you will thank yourself later

[AprilApineru]

They say that if you feel like harming yourself or the baby to go to the emergency room. Just remember its not the baby you're upset with, and you haven't done anything wrong. Your bf sounds like a jerk and you don't need him if he's stressing you out, or still seeing his ex. A baby is a blessing no matter what.

[AMDG]

Just remember that the baby is the innocent party in all of this and that if something bad were to happen you would probably feel really horrible for a long time, even if you thought you wanted it. Only you can decide on the adoption question, but the fact that you would think of it seems to say that you are concernedfor baby's welfare, which is a very good thing. I'm sorry you're in the crazy situation you are in! Just remind yourself that baby is not to blame and that he/she is a good thing, even if the circumstances surrounding him/her are not.