Hi hun. I've had depression for about a year and half now. I'm only 8 weeks and went off my meds about a week before my home pregnancy test. It was awful. I just don't want to be on meds with the baby. I know they're "safe" but not for me. My husband is my biggest support, if I didn't have him I probably would fall apart. If you have a significant other confide in them if you haven't already, if not reach out to anyone close to you and then go to the doctor to talk about it. Don't jump on meds asap. Talk about it first even if they are okat for the baby. Do not take Cymbalta in my opinion. If you go off of it there's side effects and let me tell you it's worse than the the first trimester of pregnancy or any morning sickness you have ever had, plus brain zaps.
Talking to someone about it will help if you feel better talking to someone. When my depression hits me, I tend to write how I am feeling. I also have write a few notes to my baby, like what crazy thing I crave or like the little things I will write about. I have been having a hard time with my depression but taking meds and writing is helping but my supported my husband gives me helps a lot too. It can never be too late to get help they do have ways to help that won't affect the child. Just one thing that keeps myself from giving up is looking forward to see the Angel inside me look into my eyes and then just to see her smile for the first time.
You might wanna talk with somebody to help you, i didnt do it and its the worst feeling i almost suiciding thinking that was gonna be the solution but everytime i used to think like that my baby would kick the crap out of me lol, but after she was born i was happy but i went through post partum depression and it was like that for a month, its the most horrible depression you can get. I would go look for help its not safe for the baby or for you, your not useless or worthless..your gonna be a great mom to your baby and your baby is gonna love you always and need you, try to talk with somebody dont keep it in
I've been having depression too. My doctor prescribed me meds that are safe. I'm 27 divorced expecting my third boy. My hormones are out of this world. I cry non stop. It is not too late to get help. I'm due to be induced in 2 weeks. The med have helped a little. But with my other two pregnancies I was a lot happier and stable after my hormones readjusted. Hang in there. And definitely talk to your OBGYN.
Please talk to your doctor or midwife. It's hard, but it's best to tell them how you are feeling and they can help you. I know you are not the only pregnant mama to feel this way.