i had my baby at 24 weeks!

[Want2BeMama]

well last nite it was a really rough nite we had to make the decison to give birth, the fluid was lower and he was breached so i went in for a c-section at 1140 pm and he was born at 1205 am this morning....he surgery went really good, what im worried is about my baby....he weigthed 1lbs 7 oz, hes been in the NICU ever since and today it was the first time i could see him....i broke down in tears and just codunt stop crying, i feel so bad for him, i cant help him and i really did tried my best on keeping him in my belly, i dont know why this has happend to me, its like in 1 week my whole life just changed up and down, this is my first baby and im just so emotionally drained i dont know how long i can hold, im in pain i hurt everywhere im still in the hospital i finally started using the bathroom on my own and walking around a little, if everything goes well i should be out on sunday, and knowing i will be leaving my baby here its just so sad, my husband has been a really big support for me hes strong for me and the baby hes been taking care of me in everyway and i just feel so sad not being able to be there for both of my mens, when im usually the shoulder to cry now i need someones else shoulder to cry on, i never thought having a baby would be this emotionally and mentally challenged and i wonder why god is doing this to me?? is this a way to test him how strong i really am?? i worked so hard to finally have a family  i have always dreamed of having and now that i had finally reached the dream i feel like i have to fight for it........i just really hope my baby will make it im in tears as a write this i just need support from anyone whos been where ive been or even if you havent just knowing that someone is there listening to me is a really big help,
thank you so much and im really trying my best....keep me and the baby in ur prayers his name is GABRIELE GIUSEPPE PIO,
thank you,




-LM

[rukiyar]

OMG , you dont know how happy I am to see a post from you , I am really glad Gabe is doing so well, I hope you heal quiickly to devote more time to Gabe it must be so hard doiong what you are in pain. I will keep him and you in my prayers and copy this post for the others.

[loismwallace]

So glad to hear baby Gaberille is hangin in there. He souds like a tuff lil' man. You hang in there too. God is craddling your little Angel in your absence. My prayers are still with you and your family. Keep us posted when he overcomes each and every obstacle....God bless.

[evthing4reason]

Thanks you for your update, we are all thinking of you and Gaberille

[becca105]

Stay strong......my nephew and niece were both very early.  My nephew was born at 24 weeks and weighed 1 pd 6 oz.  He is now 13 and strong.  He is in karate and plays the drums like you wouldn't believe dispite the cerebal paulsy they "diagnosed" him with.  My neice was 2 pds.  and she too is great and going on 11.  So try to stay positive, because the positive energy is what he will feed off of, and it will help you too.  You and your family will be in my prayers.

[Want2BeMama]

Hey guys sorry i havent been able to post any up-dates. This week has been the hardest one ever, im still in pain from my c-section and taking all these pain killers just so i can go see my baby at the hospital. We are staying at my parents till i get better, my days right now are waking up at 6 am..pump my breat..take a shower have someone drive me to the hospita..stay there till about 3 pm...drive back home...take a nap...call the hospital...help mom with dinner ..wait for my husband..call the hospital again and than to sleep.....The Baby has had his ups and downs this week, but hes been here for 1 week now and hes gained 1 ounce! hes struggling with the blood sugars levels and his on insulin just because they are giving him and iv that is full of sugars, protein and vitamins so he can gain calories and there fore gain weight!  Hes had already 2 blood transcusions (sorry sp?) they keep doing all these blood work everyday they keep poking his toes for the blood sugars and its so heart breaking to see that :(  and it seems like everytime i go his skin is getting worst, they say hes because right now they are touching him a lot and hes skin is so premature that it bruces just by touching, but it will get better. The dr. are telling me that inspite how premature he is hes doing really good. Hes oxygen level is 21% and i guess thas what we breath so hes doing really good with that. They had started feeding him my breat milk everytime was ok till he had his first bowl movement yesterday and it was a greenish color they think he might have an infection going on so just to make sure they stopped the feedings for now and are doing some x-rays i should get the results sometime today, he also got his first u/s of his brain late last nite so im waiting for those results too.
Right now its a lot for me to handle and im learning somenthing new everyday, i think if somenthing was really wrong with him the dr. would have already told me by now, dont you think?? im really trying my  best to stay postive and  i have a really supportive family, its just really sad right now when i go see him, because he dosent know that im there for him, hes been having a light on top of him for his jandeness (sorry sp?) but it should be out sometime today or tomorrow, i was told that he will be in the close box bed for at last 1 month and after that i will be able to hold him...i just wish this time would fly by fast and i cannot wait till the day i take my little man home!
I thank everyone here for thinking of me and being so supportive i have a long road ahead of me and im trying my best to be strong i need all the prayers and suppost i can get!
Thank you all again and i will keep an update as soon as i can!


-LM

[Zanes_Mommy]

We're still thinking about all of you.  Can't wait for an update.  Hope all is well.  Lots of HUGS!