11 Weeks: cough that hurts my uterus, loss of appetite, emotional stress

[mommyanddaddyd]

11 Weeks high risk. Baby as if Monday moving around looking good.

I've had this horrible cough for two Weeks now and I'm trying to avoid taking anything bring in my first trimester I'm scared to take anything. But ita been really hurting when I cough. If I bend down or hold it firmly it feels a lot better. I'm scared I'm hurting the baby. The cough is usually just dry unless I had allergies that day our if I cried. Yes cried which had been so, much. I'm trying so hard to stay positive for babies well being but my honey left me. I'm do scared of being a single mom. We went into this ready to create a family, adding his other children in the equation and now he's gone. Its kind he flipped. He was nothing to do with me and his llast words pretty much to me is I'll be fine being a single mom so many women do it. :'l he injured I'm high risk he knows I need his support bc I'm not financially stable without him. He was suppose to fix my car and there's no sign he will be doing that. My family dOesn't knew I'm pregnant. I've been waiting to tell everybody till my second trimester and now I'm s embarrassed that I'm going to be doing this alone and I have to come out and say "hey everyone in expecting ante oh ya he left me so I'll be doing this by myself"? this is devastating. I don't know if he is scared or what. I've known him for many many years and I know he's set and not coming back. He blames it on himself for but understanding woman and just going to be like his dad old and alone. I Told him he is nothing like his dad. He's hours to his other children he dOesn't drink our do drugs. His outcome because he's a genuinely a good person will be far from his dads. But he's set in it. Positive about his decision and happy with it. As I stand there and try not to cry he leaves like he's a kid that gets to go to a candy shop. This leads to my other situation my loss of appetite.

I've been hungry but want nothing to eat. I think of food and it makes me feel so gross. I had pretty bad night sickness but that's gone pretty much now. I've been eating a little breakfast and a pretty healthy lunch but when I get home and its dinner time and when I take my prenatals I have no desire. I feel so awful like I'm hurting my baby. I was wondering if is just from the sadness I'm feeling or if its normal. Then the other morning I woke up to pee and I went back to bed. I was drinking water (room temperature) then all of a sudden it came right back up. No chance for me to get to a bathroom or trash. So my taste for water is now gone and my bladder is mad at me. I've been trying so hard to drink fluids, and eat and keep from crying and save my relationship but I'm failing at all of it.

I know I have to take care of me and baby regardless of my honeys cowardness. I'm just so hurt.

[mommyanddaddyd]

I should have proof read this before I posted it. My text prediction on my phone failed me. I'm sorry