Worse than shortness of breath the worst type of breathing

[misfit1987]

Hi iam 36 years old .I have had this going on for over a year my quality of life is gone my relationship with my fiance is failing because of my medical problems I feel like I speak another language..please someone help me !!!so I have these unusual rare symptoms where iam unable to breathe but this is the worst thing only in a nightmare ..So what happens is my lungs inside them it's like a thick smothering substance iam breathing it's either not actual air or it covers the air inside or gives me no room to breathe no air can get in or stay ..an then alot of times my lungs get this physical intense feeling where my air stops entering going in my lungs it's like something physical in there covers my lungs and as soon as I feel it my oxygen goes way down 91 89 I wake up and it's impossible to breathe there is other symptoms I cannot explain it's impossible I've tried but I've always had good health my oxygen never drops I did a 6 min walk an my oxygen was bouncing from 99 to 96 91 and they asked are you short of breath no it's WORSE LIKE NO OTHER THING it's sounds crazy but this is really happening it's not anxiety or any mental thing this is real lung problems I've had COVID in the past a year ago then all this so many different symptoms over the year notebook on standby wrecking my brain for doctors to understand for me to give detail to save my life now it's gotten worse an I can barely walk lift anything or breathe everyday iam in a 1000 hells not knowing what is going on this is a rare case an nothing shows up in scans x-rays nothing I want to live so bad an be okay an just know and to save my wife from having to be alone while I lay there lofeless balling my eyes out wondering why God gave me something impossible to nevrr figurr out to suffer in silence to never show up or me to never be able to explain it iam reaching out to you guys u may not have this exact same thing but maybe u can help this is so big bigger than my body I carry around everyday hoping I don't wake up it's a tortureous existence ..please help maybe you guys can help me word this in full detail..IVE BEEN IN HELL WITH THIS AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT SOMETHING WORSE HAPPENED WHILE THIS WAS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME I HAD SYMPTOMS OF RETROGRADE AMENSIA I WAS FORGETTING EVERY SECOND ALL DAY 24 7 I don't remember when it stopped but I still loose days it's all earsed and 2 days even 3 iam like whats been going on I've been doing I can't even keep up with why me an my fiance got into it or what all I've done recently something 1 or 2 days feels like weeks or months ago so far out I've forgot guys iam so petrified I've been through medical hells no one can fathom all at once this and gi issues where my throat would swell but food comes up stuck even tho swallowed good and then so swollen I couldn't get it up all these 3 things at once iam surprised I didn't end it I can't be steong anymore iam loosing my fiance my life my ability to walk everything please someone help iam so scared this size of hell makes hell a grain of salt

[misfit1987]

And with the memory loss every second i also had slowed speech and like something was wrong with my brain and stoke like symptoms an I got so scared the side of my head swelled like an aneurysm I got hospitalized it drove me crazy I couldn't remember my fiance face all our memories and my sister seen my face drooping the Dr said iam fine and sent me on my way I know this sounds made up cuz hells like this at once dont happen but I already lost my long term from a car wreck in 2009 my childhood gone papaw gone and they said we were close me and my fiance knew each for 20 years now dating she's a new person to me now and my lungs are mysteriously not working or function right I've looked all over for what this lung stuff could be it's so unheard of I pray I know one day why am I cursed to be the only person with this and my oxygen dropping everyday I'm gonna die I wanted to live and have a life with her but me and her it's like it's over she won't talk about the negative she's positive there is help but to me it's so rare and don't make since I won't ever know or it show up in any other test I do God this is so much bigger than what I can bare why did u give me something impossible to find and explain the drs thing iam crazy I really need medical answer to stop this I want a life again iam so shocked I haven't had a heart attack this is been over a year and the second forgetting happens few months back while breathing this type I had and gi couldn't eat for 2 weeks now lungs are worse iam 36 and can't walk far can't do anything but suffer in misery some help answer this

[misfit1987]

I just have to wait it out imagine being In a real medical emergency an noone can stop what your feeling or ease the symptoms or find it or know what it is same with my memory loss no answers

[misfit1987]

Also I have had every test and nothing shows I go to the ER in a real emergency and they don't help me the breathing problems last for 3 or 4 days straight I barley get any good days and when I do 20 more problems arise iam never at peace or calm this stuff is really scary I don't know how to figure it out it's worse than rare there is no medical reason so if no answer then like this everyday then in my 40s it's worse drs send me on my way an I promise hand to God I can't breathe I looked it up a smothering substance is something not common senerio it's gonna be hard to figure out and diagnose and half what I've said I explained don't do it justice for how bad it feels what is going on in my lungs idk what to do iam scared iam jus here to suffer and it's gonna get worse as I get older no one knows what this does to me emotionally I don't have big enough words I don't someone out there please help me