My story is that on December 15 I received oral sex on my penis. I ejaculated in her mouth, and then the experience was over, which I immediately regretted. This was my first time engaging in this kind of risky behaviour with someone I did not know.
When I got home, I washed my penis with soup. I think I even put shampoo inside. I was pretty rigorous, as I felt very dirty from the behaviour. Of course, the shampoo hurt and made me feel stinging sensations at the tip of my penis.
Next, I went and got myself tested on December 19 for everything imaginable. The big ones were HIV, HSV, chlamydia, gonorrhoeae, syphilis, hep B, and hep C, which all turned out negative.
I felt good about that until I opened my pee hole and looked inside. The bottom wall or canal of the urethra was white in colour. It is slightly raised and it seemingly travels down the urethra tube for as far as I can see with a flashlight. I immediately panicked and realized I did all my tested way too soon.
I can’t remember if I was feeling stinging inside the tip of my penis before looking inside, or if it started again after, but either way I have been feeling discomfort ever since December 15, and with the white appearance I see inside, I’m in even more discomfort.
So on December 29 (2 weeks after high risk incident), I took a test for HSV 1 and 2, and it came back negative again. On January 2 (2 weeks + 4 days), I took a test for chlamydia and gonorrhoeae, which also both came back negative again.
Still, the tip of my penis was irritating me. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. My underwear was bothering me. I felt rubbing against the fabric. It was getting red on the exterior of the tip of my penis, and I was frantically always checking, touching, and squeezing open. I even tried masturbating several times through this tough experience simply to see if that would get rid of the pressure and irritation I was feeling, but it only seemed to make things worse.
I was feeling like my life was over. I’ve cried myself to sleep two times. That’s how shaken up I’ve been. So I went to see a doctor on January 6 who was not mine, because I felt ashamed to see my own. My doctor is actually quite rude and makes me feel uncomfortable, always brushing me off like my problems and concerns are not worthwhile. That’s besides the point though... so I saw a doctor and she gradually looked and just told me it was my urethra and not to worry.
I tried taking that to heart but I felt like she didn’t even look closely. Just peered over and probably my angling of my penis towards her visual perspective was not the right angle, because from my vantage point I could clearly see it, while she sat in her chair not getting up to try and look. So as I reassessed that moment, I regressed back to my worries.
On January 29, I went to see my doctor. He didn’t know what it was. I asked him if it’s normal? He said, “What is normal?” I said I don’t know, I’m not a doctor. He said anything can be normal. He berated me for even worrying and told me not to have sexual contact without protection, and yes I know, I get it that I screwed up. I have this mysterious irritation though with this mysterious appearance, and so I need answers. He took a swap for HSV, and I’m awaiting those results. I have another urine test to do to check for chlamydia or gonorrhoeae, but I feel like this will all come back negative again.
My doctor thinks it could be HPV. I have had genital warts before on my scrotum, but those haven’t appeared for over a year and a half, going onto two years. Never had a bad breakout of that. It was so minor. Removed with the ice freezing or whatever it was, and they haven’t returned.
Could this whiteness inside my urethra really be HPV? If so, how would I get rid of that? I asked my doctor, and he said you don’t. But really? If I can’t get rid of it, will I become infertile?
Basically I am looking for answers. I have no answers at this point. I’m very confused. I can draw up any possibility without any concrete confidence that I’m correct about anything
Help needed, please and thank you!