Could I still have Herpes?

[willy851]

I performed unprotected oral sex with another man four months ago and I am still suffering from extreme anxiety. I had tests done for everything at 2,10 and 12 weeks and everything was negative. The herpes test was done using herpes select and came back <.9 negative for hsv1 and the same for hsv2. they also used hsv1 IGM combination and that came back at <.9 negative. I haven't had any symptoms that I can pinpoint but I still have this awful feeling that I contracted something. One reason is the window period is 12 to 16 weeks and my last test was done at twelve weeks. I read that the possibility of contracting herpes via oral sex is low, but not low enough for my anxiety. This was a white male and supposedly they are less likely to have herpes. But if he did does the fact that I don't have hsv1 mean
that I would be more likely to catch it? Then if I do have herpes from oral sex would it be mild and not likely to have any outbreaks? Most of what I read assumes that everyone has oral herpes 1 already.
I know my anxiety is a huge problem and it will definitely keep me from ever doing something like that again. When this all started I first thought I had herpes then hiv then hcv now I am back to herpes. I have an appointment Wednesday to get another blood test. I have to know for sure before I go crazy. Does the fact that I haven't experienced any symptoms mean that I don't have it or that it is mild because it was oral?

This web site and a few others have been invaluable to me in the past few months. I can't imagine not being able to read of other peoples situations and draw from the collective knowledge of the internet and the people on this site.
Thank you for putting up with me!

[willy851]

Yes I know and I am going to make an appointment for that to. I am happily married and did something incredibly stupid. The guilt is destroying me.
I keep reading all this STD stuff and convincing myself that I must have something.
I am 42 yrs old and haven't been sick for probably 20 yrs. Not to long after this incident I had a bad sinus cold, pink eye then a sore throat for a month.
I continue to get weird feelings at the tip of my penis, sometimes it is extremely sensitive. I know I am probably causing all the problems, but I need to test to prove to myself, that I am ok.

When I was in my twenty's I never used condoms and loved oral sex. We never thought about aids and just about anything that you caught could be fixed with penicillin. Today I wonder if it is going to come back and haunt me.    

[barn babe]

You don't need another blood test. You need therapy.