8 days ago I was involved with an escort. I was extremely drunk, so the details are very fuzzy. I only remember receiving oral sex on my penis and testicles with a condom (I did not ejaculate). There was also body contact but I can’t remember if I was wearing the condom then, and I don’t know if our genitals touched. I am second guessing every instance I remember of the night. The woman was a drug user (I’m almost certain intervenes), which I found out after the fact. When she needed to use the bathroom and was there for awhile when she came out I asked her why that’s when she told me. What if she had done this before she came and I was unaware and there could have been blood????? It gets worse.
I am getting married less than 2 weeks. My fiancé is the only woman that I have been with romantically, I had sex with only one other person and it was when I was 20 and it was in another bad situation. I wish I learned, and now I have and I fear it’s too late at 29 years old. I justified this night with the escort because I did not want to cheat on my wife when we get married EVER, but I knew wondering what it was like to be with another woman would always be in my head and I didn’t want have that temptation. I’m such an idiot. I love her with every fiber of my being.
Yesterday I went to get tested, unbeknownst to my fiancé. The doctor took blood and urine, and told me that I was at low risk. I felt only a little better, but just because it was nice to talk to someone.
But then……...this morning when I urinated for the first time of the day it felt a little difficult at first and when I started to urinate the stream split like urination after intercourse. I thought it was odd and looked in the toilet and saw a white milky substance that looked like semen, there was enough to notice without looking hard. It was defiantly strange and I don’t remember having seen something like this before.
I’ve read about gonorrhea, my penis does not burn when I urinate or otherwise (outside of what I think is physiological). The area around the opening is not red, my testicles have been uncomfortable but not to the point where it’s distracting and normally I urinate a lot so I can’t tell if I’m going more than normal. I have urinated 3 times since then and have seen nothing. I have not ejaculated in over a week now (obvious reasons) which is unusual for me,
could I have had a partial “wet dream” and this was just residual semen?
Should I go back to the doctor?
What am I at risk for, I feel like everything?
I have no one in my life to talk with, only my fiancé. I have decided to wait to tell her, I don’t want to ruin this for her, I feel so guilty and I am living a day by day hell. Every time she gets flowers or we get a gift I want to break out sobbing. We leave for a month trip to another country beginning of next month. I have not sleep with her since this incident and will not; I have lied already to her more in these few days than our entire relationship. I feel like I’m going to have a heart attack, STDs are her worst nightmare and now I’m the person making that a reality. Please help.