Like everyone else, I apologize in advance for a long story. About seven months ago i met an amazing woman. A woman i almost immediately fell in love with, and believe me, i'm not the type to immediately fall in love. We dated for about two months and had an amazing time. Finally, we attempted to be intimate for the first time and...I psyched myself out. She was just so damned beautiful and I had spent an entire day hoping it would happen that night, and I just had a case of ED. It had never happened to me before, and of course, it sent me into an absolute panic, especially when it happened again just a few days later. She was understanding, but i could tell that she was confused, hurt, and definitely having second thoughts about me and "us".
So...i'm ashamed to say...i tried some chemical help in the form of Cialis. And no, sadly, i did not talk to a doctor first. Here's the thing though, i used the lowest possible dosage, and even cut them in half to use less than that. And it worked. For the next two months it was bliss. Then we were apart for a while because we were both travelling for work. Shortly after that, she had a minor abdominal surgery which made sex impossible for even a few more weeks. Then early in December, she was finally feeling well enough and..we had sex...and i DID NOT USE CIALIS. It felt great. I felt totally "cured" of a condition that i know was only in my head anyway. For about ten days, everything was great.
Towards the end of that week we met some friends for dinner and had a late night, and i was pretty tired and...it was a no show. I figured i was just tired, and we didn't even try to have sex that night, but still...it threw me off enough to try a pill again, which worked the following night. The next time we were together was no problem -- no pill and it was just fine. Again, figured i was just tired.
Then earlier this week i came down with a bit of a head cold -- sore throat, little chilled, congested, and sore back. I really didn't think that could possibly affect anything but...it did...or at least, i HOPE it's just the cold. Because while i was able to achieve an erection...i was NOT able to maintain it...twice, in the span of three days. So of course, in a panic, i went back to the pill. IT worked for a night...but not the second night.
I'm caught in this viscous cycle of self doubt now. I've gone back and forth using (stupidly) Cialis and not using it. I know, I KNOW, this is all in my head. It's psychological ED and that's just the end of the story. But I can't seem to get myself out of it.
So, basically, just wondering if anyone has any advice, or has ever had a similar situation and how you got yourself out of it.
Sorry again for long post. Like I said...i'm feeling sick and..a little pathetic...