Really getting me down.

[Dmxdex2020]

I am in my second sexual relationship i am 22 my first was when i was 18 i have had no sex since i was 18.

About the second week into my relationship with my girlfriend of 6 months i felt under pressures to have sex with her we had been doing alot of touching and kissing and in the build up to it all i was extemely nervous i have suffered from anxiety for alot of years.

When we got down to the sex i lost my erection.

For over 3 months i had problems with my erection no erections waking up and if i got an erection then it would not last for a long time.

I can get an erection and have sex now, i just find my self constantly thinking about if im gonna be able to ***, i had issues with ejackulating when i was able to have sex antidepressants didnt help in the past not being able to ejackulate after a while just made me depressed.

I find myself thinking so much when having sex i think i became addicted to porn for the 4 years i had no sex i would obsess about having sex and finding the perfect body babe.

My girlfriend is gorgeous not got the body of a porn star and thats on my mind and im fed up of it because in the real world it is not like that.

All of this has hit my sex drive making me not want to have sex but instead to masterbate alone or have her do that because i tend to really like it i love it when she does it to me.

I just want to be able to enjoy sex like in my last relationship.

I have suffered with HOCD since i got struck down with sexual anxiety i had HOCD in the past but managed to shrug it off after a month i feel i have done that now but maybe its still on my mind.

I have suffered depression for alot of years i get moods swings alot.

When i come up from my depression last about week i love being with my girlfiriend and nothing matters sex doesnt matter to me and i just fee incredible love for her.

The most aroused i was with her was when i was on citalopram which stopped me being able to ejackulate and for 3 weeks we had sex alot but i could not orgasm and it just turned me into a monster sexually was great.

I would like to be like that more often now because then i dont think i would be as bad i get horny around her and feel i want to inagage in sex but when it comes down to it my does all the thinking and puts me off.

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[Dmxdex2020]

I am waiting to see a shrink i beleive it is mental and that therapy is needed.

[Vance2335]

The only advice I can give you is to see a threapist and talk to them about the problems. If might be more mental then physical.