heavy bleeding and losing virginity

[lily127]

I'm writing this after the fact (it happened about a month ago), but I would just like to share my experience, because it was a difficult one, and see if anyone else has experienced anything similiar, or if i'm just crazy.

ok, so, i'm in college and about a month ago I lost my virginity (it was a guy a knew, and am good friends with), and I wanted to try it partly out of curiousity and because I always thought sex would be something I liked.  But it was sooooo much different.  It hurt like nothing i've experienced before and I thought there might be some blood, but I was so embarassed because the guy's sheets were soaked, and the shirt that he laid down before hand.  I had to get up like 10 times during the night and the whole toilet bowl was filled with blood every time (sorry, not to get too graphic, but I just wanna tell it the way it was).  The next morning I was still bleeding and really sore.  
     But the story get worse....so, the whole next day I just felt uncontrollably emotional and depressed.  For some reason I felt violated and could hardly stand to look at my body in the mirror.  I couldn't stop crying all day, and that night I honestly felt like I could have jumped off a bridge (idk why I felt this way, looking back it was so irrational).  I wasn't upset because i'd lost my virgninity..I honestly don't know why the depression happened.  Anyways, i'm completely fine now, but it's still hard for me to think back to this experience.  Please someone tell me if the bleeding is normal, and if the emotional response makes me a complete psycho.  

[ashstark]

i think an expert examination can tell if you have hurt yourself.

[WestCoastChanel]

I just lost my virginity & I'm bleeding a lot as much as too where I could even be on a heavy flow period I'm also really soar the guy I lost it to has no stds or anything he's only had one other sexual partner other than me I'm scared is this normal? Please help me.

[Sassy_Pants]

I can't say that I've expirienced this on the same level as you... but recently I lost my virginity to my boyfriend of 2 years and I bled quite a lot. It was as bad as my period for the next day, and it hurt like crazy... I could barely stand to have him inside me. Also, when we have sex now (a week + later) I still bleed enough to make large stains on the sheets. On the emotional side, I felt sightly down the days following. Nothing compared to the exptreme you seemed to have felt, but i wasn't very happy. This concerned my partner, but I seem to be over it now. It was a little scary as I thought I would feel quite happy (not upset)

I hope this helped a little bit at least...