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terrible experience i encountered
I had bad encounter back in 2001 and i cant get off my mind . dont know if iam exaggrating things or its actually happened to me .An aquiantance has invited me to his room to watch afilm and it was porn film . All of asudden he came up to my bed while laying...and he was naked . Iam not gay and havent any thoughts twords boys. I was laying with my legs quite a part but MY CLOTHES WAS ON ME. he sat with his erected penis facing my anus. then after a while i remember something could have touched me on the anus area. I WAS NOT sure whether that was his penis or not . i kept this way for half an hour or abit more . I remember i was moving my butt everytime as indication of discomfort from his position . then as i mentioned i jumped from bed and left . initially this incident didnt effect me at all as i thought i just left the bed ...and the maximum he could have done is he just rubbed me from behind. After couple of years i started to have thoughts coming in my mind...what if he that rubbing could have turned to dipping or his penis head made brief penetration. IT led me to do press with finger on my anus ..and i figured out there is small distance between pressing on sphincter muscle and passing it with penis head . Now when i did quick press with my finger i felt there is no pressing at all and you would feel staright into your anus, IAM asking this question not from medical aspect , but i really feel devastated that iam asking to find out IF THIS BRIEF PENETRATION HAPPENED OR NOT???.....could i been briefly penetrated but i didnt felt ???....what about my butt movements while i was with him in bed ...because i felt like i accidently moved my butt towrds his penis..and now afraid if that facilitated entrance....Why i didnt feel pain if penetration happen???....does brief penetration happened and i didnt feel any pain??....IAM asking this question to find out because i dont want to feel iam being gay
If you were penetrated you would know.
Free yourself from this guilt. You are no different than anyone else, human and imperfect. Forgive yourself and let this go.
This is an hiv forum, future enquiries should be directed to the appropriate forum.
Free yourself from this guilt. You are no different than anyone else, human and imperfect. Forgive yourself and let this go.
This is an hiv forum, future enquiries should be directed to the appropriate forum.
but i didnt aske from medical prespective , i just asked whether he made any sort of penetration to me ....and i mean ANY even slightest , because iam asking from culture point of view
You did not have a risk from this event. Not only that, but you would not have HIV this long and not know about it,
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