Oh, sweetheart, I feel so badly for you, and yet can empathize at the same time. When I was a teenager I had these feelings also. I wasn't lucky enough to be able to tell my parents openly (things were different way back then). You have to understand, that you don't have to worry about regret over telling your parents, or anything else, and making it into a "situation." That's life. Believe me, in just a few years you probably won't even remember these day to day anxieties; or they will just seem like vague thoughts you had back then. You do seem a little depressed, and while all your parents' suggestions have been terrific, maybe it's time to think about seeing someone objective--i.e., a therapist. Maybe you just need some mild antidepressant to get you past this rough spot. Maybe the therapist will be enough. I do think suggesting going to see someone is a good idea, really. I wish that I had had that openness in my teens! Keep me posted, good luck and God bless.
thank you so much for your great advice! I will definitely consider going to see someone, I agree that there's nothing to lose, only stuff to gain. and my feelings are so weird right now, that even though i posted this not five hours ago, I feel really good right now, although I can promise I'll feel down again sometime in the next few days. thanks for the help!
I think you need to learn coping techniques, they really work. Example: when you catch urself thinking in that direction u need to think of something else. It'll take some practice but like i said b4 it really works. To get ideas try to make a list of things like a color or anything, it has to be something not negative. It can be a smooth rock or just breathing whatever you can find to get ur mind back where it belongs, in the here and now. Tell urself that ur past has no place in ur future. Rememeber this takes some time and practice but DON'T GIVE UP THE END RESULT WILL BE WORTH IT!!!!