family making me feel guilty

[sammy47]

Hi im 17 and from wales,
right my problem started well seens i was a baby, my mum was a deprsst person for a long time, and we when me and my sis were kids she tryd to kill us and well put her self in a mental hosp, well when i went to school i was beaton up by the teachers wich sceard me for a long time into going to school, then well i ternd 13, and as sis are i was very protictiv over my lil sis and i toke alll her beatins and ****, well ternd 15 got with this guy and all the beatens stop and my pearonts went realy nice. then we moved by then my bf was liveing with us, a year later in this new place my mum went deprsst and kik me and my partner out, so we left for 2 weeks then went back, but then my mum was trying to kill her self a lot and my dad wonted nothing to do with it my sis was cousing truble and runing away a  lot so, i went to looking after my mum when my dad and sis left, every time my mum was upset or trying to kill her self i would be there for her every time, till now its geting to much for me and im starting to feel deprsst to, i not live with my bf 20 miles from my mum, but i go and see her every day help her talk to her and every thing, but then she started threatning me to and shouting at me, and im trying to exsplian to her whats she is doing and stuff, now she has splite the familys up and every thing and i still stuck by her side but the other day she got to much know im not talking to her and she keeps leaveing me messages saying she is going to kill her self and **** and im scaerd and worred cos i was the only one there for her, and at the moment im going thore a lot of other family problems with my bf and stuff and its geting to much for me i just dont know wich way to tern no more, its hard to talk to my bf cos he doesent understand,





there is a lot more but to much =[, i feel like **** i get told nerly every day im a worthles **** of **** and cald names and threatend, i just wont to deserpre but im worred abut leave my mum and the rest of my family, can any one help, nerly every day im crying becouse of this, this it the first time iv spoken of any of this, properly

[margypops]

It is hard for you no doubt but you probably need to get on with your own life and do what you can and thats all,  she has to want to help herself ,you cant do that for her. So be with her sometimes but leave if she is abusive in any way ,if she will get help you can support her through it, but the choice is hers not yours.

[sammy47]

there is no family member who wont to take notice of her any more becouse of how she is and what she does, and well with the doctor part i well try that, she lives alone im so worred abut her, the only problem is no one can realy do any thing abut it becouse all she has to do is say i dont need help and they cant do any thing she has done it befor she tryd to od and cute her rest and she went to a meantle word and they let her out the same day saying there was nothing rong with her, it scaers me to know she can do all this, my dad ses i shuld just let her go and do what she pls so i dt get hert, but its hard when u love some one so much even more so when its ur own mother,

[margypops]

You have had a lot of problems to deal with in your life and are still having them ,until you are able to go and live your own life it will continue, your Mom could use some help with her problems from a proffesional person, this is too much for you to Handle alone. Is there any other Family Member to help you do this?You obviously care for her and the best way to help her would be to get the help she needs . Start off by going to your Doctor and ask where you can speak to someone for help for her,you cannot continue to do this alone.Do not listen to the bad things she is saying ,to you,  walk away from them,.If she is okay living by herself possibly you should not visit for a while and see if she does manage alone . Let us know how you are doing