Help!

[Ineedhelpgirl]

Well I don't know if this is the right topic to post or if I am depressed
It all started when I moved from another country and well I hate living here, I miss so much my friends, I miss everything, I hate waking up everyday to go to school when I really don't want to, I cry every morning and night its been I think 6 months since I moved and I feel the same or worst, I'm so not used to High School I mean I'm a sophomore but I come from a school where is totally different and I feel so uncomfortable cause I'm not used to speaking english sometimes I screw up what I say and I just feel like the most stupid person in the world I don't have friends and I'm a person that needs to talk like a lot my old teachers used to get mad at me for talking in class but I just had to much things to share, I miss so much my best friend I miss being in this comfort zone, I even think I changed I feel like I don't have strength to confront the world I used to like so many things I used to want to become this famous singer and everything and all that is gone I feel so miserable and I just want to sleep and sleep so I don't have time to think and realize I'm here, I just hate it I wish I could drop school because I've never been interested to go to college but my dad told me if I did that then I would have to work and he will kick me out of my house and what would I do if he did that? I don't know anyone and of course now I fight with my mom everyday and I just hate it I told her that the best it was that I moved to orlando with my friend but she told me that this was my house and if I wanted things work out then I should stay but I don't want to I know if I go there it will give us time to think but well all those plans got screwed cause my friend is moving to a smaller apartment and she doesn't have room for me.
Every time I see girls hanging out and smiling and laughing I just feel so jealous if only I had my bff here everything would be so different I never thought it was going to be so difficult and of course I always think of killing myself, I tried to kill myself today but I just couldn't do it that made me ask myself do I really want to die? but I just don't know the answer
I need help to feel better cause I just hate feeling like this

[trish934]

hey there! girl its sad reading the changes that u have to go through all at once. i can't tell u i felt sad to leave my first home cause it was ghetto! still i understand it's a big change but hey don't study those classmates who may want to tease or just show that there dumb and can't socialize. there are friends out there you'll meet at your new school with the same zeal, passion and enthusiasm for life just as u. Please........ get death out of your mind. hey! your young and have a lot to accomplish especially a person with your type of attitude.
i do experience at present those conflicts between mother and daughter and u know what ended up happening that help to resolved my hate and anger? :-) we got into this heated argument and i spelled  out my guts to her tell her everything how i hated some of her ways, how she never understands what am going through etc. I even told her that i had recently broken up with my boyfriend and that's why i avoided her frequently. but of course your new to the area so leaving the house for a stole  and not that i want u yo stray:-)
all am trying to say is that she's best for now to be the one to talk to and speak out what your going through and how you feel? may have some good answers never know? mine had and now i confide in her. hang i there girl!!! ok

[ronju]

bad days will be over dear--not by magic but only if you try to solve the problems one by one. make a plan that you will make one new friend this month and then another next month.one day you might have many friends. never think of suicide because there  are so many beautiful things on earth to see and to feel that you will be astonished. we all go through rough times but that is part of growing up .

[Judy246]

Hi...it sounds like you completely out of your comfort zone. It's a drastic change to come to a new country, new home, new school, know no one. Feel isolated, scared, intimidated and lonley.  It's alot.  When you cry, it's because you have had quite a few losses, school, friends, environment and you will grieve (like a death), but this is hope.

If you can't change your situation, your going to have to make the best of the situation you are in.  Start with accepting what you can't change and start making new goal, new plans on how to make the best of your new life.

It's not easy, but it's up to you. Start with school. You will make friends naturally by just being yourself.  Go to school with a focus that you want to do well with your grades and other students want to do well also and friendship will develope by just being yourself.

You must like yourself first in order for others to want to be around you. Let's talk about wanting to die by suicide. Suicide is when a person does not have the coping skills to deal with a situation that in reality is temporary.  It will pass if you would just hang in there for just one more day.  Also, not everyone is religious, but I'm going to just throw it out there...."Thout Shall Not Kill"....that also applies to the self.  You are are miserable her now...you have no idea where your soul is going to if you break one of the ten commandments.

Life is difficult and it's not easy being a teenager. These bad experiences will teach you how to cope in situations. They will make you a better person when other situations arise.  Your going to be ok...just hang in there, surround yourself with good people who like you for you, a good environment, stay away from arguments with mom and dad, and everything will fall into place.  

I recommend that you make an appointment to speak with you school councelor, teacher or any adult that will help you sort out your feelings.  

You will be ok...one day at a time

Judy
Chgo, IL