Help! I cant take it, everyday I wake up and im happy but later on during the day I start thinking wether ill wake up tomorow

[ArmaniKydd]

Im 16 years old, and I have an amazing life..I have everything I ever wanted (my girlfreind, and amazing parents)
A month and a half ago I got really addicted to video games and I took them way too seriously..and I coudnt beat this one level I kept trying and trying and then im like screw this..and got so pissed and bashed my head against the wall but it wasnt so hard..i started getting very paranoid about it..i started getting thaughts what If i have a internal bleeding in my head, a tumor..cuz my head started to hurt. I forgot about it for a week..then I went to a teen club with my freinds and then my dad called me up and started yelling at me about something stupid and i started worrying then i had headaches again, high blood pressure etc. Every night I would be worried about If Ill wake up or not..We took MRI's, Blood Tests, and EKGS, ECGS..Neurologists, everything was fine..I dont know why I'm still worried about it. Cuz ive been hearing diffrent stories about deaths..and ive been taking them too seriously..like my frend had a nightmare that I got killed and told it to me while I was worrying which freeked me out even more.

[Judy246]

wow....you are thinking too much and have obsesive compulsive tendencies with video games. They are just a game, that's all, so if  you feel you are addicted or becoming addicted you need to stop, put the game away for a day or so, but you are your worst enemy right now.   To bash your head against the wall over a game is just not right. If the test result show that you are ok, then stop dwelling on if you are going to die. You are only 16 yrs old and  you have your entire life ahead of you, but you are in control of  you behavior and your future. Life is what you make it out to be and for the record...it's not your time. You are worrying unecessarily.  If you continue with headaches, they might be cause by the stress your are putting yourself in or migrane (all very treatable). Have your mother get a second opinion on your headaches.

Surround yourself with good a good environment and people that will like you for who you are...just the way you are. Stay in school, seek out good grades and life will fall into place and you will blossom.    Death....sorry, it's not your time and you have too much life to live ahead of you,so don't ever go there....best wishes...Judy

p.s nightmares can be cause by the food people eat before bed, sickness, but that is all it is ...a bad dream.

[sdbrit]

Hey, just wanted to say good for you to make the effort to get on this forum and get some deeper insight into your issue.

I'm a Mom of a 16 year old boy and from my experience I think it's normal to obsess about this kind of stuff once in a while.  My son goes a bit overboard with the video games too - having watched a bit it is understandable because they are so well made, it does suck you in to the whole other world...again I think that's not that unusual.

At your age it's hard to handle some emotions and frustrations don't be too hard on yourself about bashing your head agaist the wall once, if nobody ever did it the phrase to "bash my head agaist a wall" would not be so common.  The lesson is to recognise what led to that level of frustration and try to shift from that pattern before getting to the same point in the future - some counselling would not be a bad idea to;
i) help you avoid a similar situation or be able to control the emotion before it gets the better of you and
ii) help you handle the worries and fears that you are having regarding your health.

My guess is that you are a very smart and intellectual kid, and you think very deeply about things.  This is the way my son is.  These are great traits to have but they also mean that something that may not bother other mortals may get to you more because you think at a much deeper level.  You are not crazy, there are lots of kids like this.  Plus you are a teenager - it's probably kinda normal to have this sudden realization that you are a mortal being.  My son has had periods of obsessing about this - but he has got over it and I know you will, even if you need a little help to get there, it's all ok.

One thing Judy said is right - stress can induce headaches, my son has had them.  Either counselling or talking it through some more with your parents might make the world of difference but please don't be hard on yourself - it sounds like you are a great kid and going through some normal teenage stuff for a smart kid.

Take care of yourself.

[ArmaniKydd]

but its all getting worse and worse and worse..i stopped thinking about me, i started thinking about everyone in the world..its like my life is only surrounded by DEATH thaughts. and everything reminds me of death like regular things that had some connection to someone dying. Its crazy for example: i walk into a room and i see a photograph..it reminds me of a photograph i saw about a person who died, i look at my computer it reminds me of bad news: like death, and different things. alot of things too..but i try my hardest not to pay attention..but its like my brain is constantly thinking of death..and other ppl tht one day were going to die.. i used to just live life and just look at the world and be like wow!! i love life! and now its like.. man i feel bad for everyone cuz everyone will die bla bla bla its soo stupid i regret everything!!!