It hurts to live

[Spectrals]

I can't stand it. This feeling under my skin. I have been depressed since 12 and im now 18, i don't care about college, school, anything anymore. It is all the same. I am in myself and it hurts, constantly. I do not know why either, something is terribly wrong. I've dabbled in drugs in the past and its the feeling you get when your coming down, but it feels like im always coming down. I can't stand it anymore. I just want to feel happiness and rid of this constant agony. Can anyone help me?

In my life i've had sex, gone on vacations, been to parties and yet nothing seems to satisfy me. I am inside myself wherever i am, and it hurts.

[SMcGregor]

You will always enjoy life's journey when you work actively towards your goals doing them with your subconscious mind. Know what's your priority and set goals for yourself

In order to feel good, the following seven factors must be present in our lives:
- good nutrition
- fresh air
- sunshine
- physical activity
- purposeful activity
- good relationships
- adequate and regular sleep

[Goodbipolar]

Not that it helps I'm twice your age and live that feeling still.being trapped where you feel hopeless to even know how to start to deal with its hard life today is not keeping up with a wide enough emotional states just like you .i am still alive but I wonder how what I do know I did was not fight it I discovered it deep within me I found my emotion happy my negative my logical way and also which triggered them states off and made connections to them like a hard wire so it can help me deal with my true self without crossing emotions to keep as I touch with who I am so then eventually your not left feeling that people don't understand you. It takes time and patience with you body to hardware the right link to each different place it belongs don't lose sight of the big picture and trust me when you know who you are other people will be naturally drawn to you and at first you will not understand but it's a chemistry that shows and most other people would not know why they felt they had to meet or say or look at you but it's a place of well being and that's all we need to feel to be at peace with who we are.  You will be fine one wire one connection