My husband is considering Testopel pellets.....

[worriedwife35]

My husband and I have been married for almost 13 years now with 2 beautiful children. My husband and I are both very into fitness. He goes to the gym almost every day.  He would often joke that the only way he could get bigger was with "a shot in the butt". Recently he has been worried about his low T-levels (which 2 doctors have said he was within average) for being in his 30's. While libido has never really been a problem (he seems to always want it), he is concerned with this energy level and of course gym performance. We have talked about steroids and the conversation always leads up to him accusing me of being one-sided or misinformed, although I see both the pros and cons of its use. I honestly see more bad than good coming from its use but I have decided to support my husband as he has always supported me. Yesterday he came home and told me that his "pellets" have been ordered and he only needs to get blood work done for a baseline. I was shocked, hurt, scared.... every "what if" ran through my mind. My biggest concern are his mood swings (he gets angry so fast-never physically) and just how much his personality is going to change. I am worried he may become cocky and start to think that maybe he can do better in terms of our relationship. What if he loses interest in me and our children? What if he can't stop? Is this really what he needs? I know that everyone reacts differently but my worries are genuine and although I have tried to talk to my husband about them he quickly gets defensive. What are some of the things I should look for? How will I be able to tell him or make him see if it becomes too much?