Okay, this is SO embarrassing... but here it goes... I've been having odor and discharge from my vagina, as well as other strange symptoms. The bad part is that this has been going on for at least 4 years, but since I never discuss anything like this with anyone in my life and I'm not sexually active, so I didn't realize I had anything strange going on down there until about 2 years ago. Here's the symptoms:
-Smell. It is NOT a fishy odor... more like vinegar-y. It isn't overpowering but it is there, no matter how frequently I wash. I'll be fine for about an hour after a shower, but it always comes back. I obviously don't have any way to compare what other women's vg's smell like, so I have no idea if it's normal... but I feel like it isn't.
-Discharge. I always have at least a little bit of cloudy looking discharge in my underwear, that dries to white. Sometimes I can feel it come out and I think I've started my period, but it isn't. The discharge itself doesn't really smell.
-I always feel kind of "wet" down there. It's especially bad if I'm wearing tight jeans or a dress. I've even started to be shy about wearing dresses, because I'm afraid people will be able to smell me... and with tight jeans, I'm always afraid there will be a wet spot on my crotch (there usually isn't, but it sometimes feels like there might be)
-This is the weirdest part, and the part that concerns me most... if I take my finger and kind of "swab" at the inside of my labia, or lightly scratch with my fingernail, I always get a white build-up. This is the part tha thas odor. Even if during my daily shower I scrub really thoroughly or try to get all of it off, it will be back by the next hour. My vg has been doing this for at least 4 years.
-As far as itchiness goes, sometimes the discharge in my underwear can be uncomfortable, and I guess I have a little itching every now and again, but like I said, I have NO IDEA what should be normal. When I check for the build up in my labia, it does feel like scratching an itch, so I don't know if this stuff is inflaming or causing irritation or what, or if that's a normal feeling.
So, there's the worst of it... I have researched different causes for what is wrong with me, but the thing that confuses me if that this has been going on for FOUR YEARS... surely that's too long to have a yeast infection? Or bacterial vaginosis? I've tried all sorts of home remedies... wearing only cotton panties, sleeping underwearless to "air out," eating lots of yogurt and cranberry juice... I don't douche or anything. I shower everyday.
Please, PLEASE, can someone help me?? Is this normal?? This has been bothering me so badly that I've stopped wearing dresses, wear shorts with a swimsuit, and have been afraid of being intimate. It is ruining my self-esteem... am I normal? I'm too afraid to see a doctor, and I've never been to a gynecologist... How do you even APPROACH a doctor about this kind of intimate, embarrassing problem??