SO UPSET

[nini_joaquin]

ive been trying 4times now..
but all i got is a menstruation..
to be honest its really killing me inside..
i dont know whats wrong anymore..
month of june i was 2weeks delayed..
month of july my period didnt come so i got high hopes..
then just yesterday i bled..
i almost gave up..
i dont want to rely on any applications anymore regarding how to know when u are fertile..
i dont know my cycle anymore..
i also thought of taking a birth control pills and suddenly stop drinking maybe that would help but i remember my 2 cousins took that before the one was drinking and stop and drinjk and stop and drink and stop but never get pregnant and the other one was almost a year since she stop before she gets her 2nd baby..
we always make love monthly..
to the days when i thought im fertile..
to be honest i also have another bf..
yeah im having sex with my 2 bf's..
isnt is so depressing to know that u cant bear a baby still?
i just want to cry..
i want to forget..
as a woman this pregnansy thing is very important..
i dont know whos got the problem anymore..
judge me if u want i dont care..
im just sharing my heart aches..
because i want to hurt myself already like i want to do something stupid WHY??? cant i have this?
my life is very complicated i cant go to doctor ok...
just some private matters...
thanx for all who read this..

[nini_joaquin]

well i broke up with the other one already and its killing me...

[nini_joaquin]

well i broke up with the other one already and its killing me...

[nini_joaquin]

Thanx. Wish me luck.
Yeah im now thinking on how to dump the other one.

[sweetpea03]

Children want and desire to have a stable 2-parent family(they will ask later who their dad is). If you really want another child, then you need to stop messing around with 2 different "bf"s. Dump one of them and actually become serious with just one and create your family with one man. Then have both you and him tested to see what is going on(him have a semen analysis and you be checked by your gyno). If there is a problem, then look for ways to treat that and then go from there. It can take any healthy couple about a year to conceive and that is normal. You have not been trying that long, so try to be patient.  

[nini_joaquin]

I know, i have a 5year old son already, i think im stable enough to have another baby. And being with 2men, i can let go of the other one and stay with the one i really love. I dont want to get married actually. Having another baby will complete me and my son also wants this so bad. Thank u for ur concern

[sweetpea03]

It is important for a baby to have a stable family and life in general, and if you are having sex with 2 different guys, then you most likely would never know who the father even is if you were to get pregnant. How do you plan on raising this baby? Do you want to get married? Do you have a full time job and stable income? Have you gotten help for your depression symptoms? Having a baby is not always easy and raising a baby is very expensive and time consuming. It is no walk in the park and not all fun and games. It's hard work and tiring, especially in the beginning. A child wants their mom and dad to be together, so if you really want to have a baby and give them all they need, then you need to really think through what you are doing. Sleeping around with 2 different bfs is not getting you anywhere good. Sit down and really think about what you want and how you will make it happen. If you really want a family, find a man who will be a good father and only stick with him. Then watch for your fertile signs and try for a baby then. Just make sure you are absolutely ready and prepared for a baby, because it's not easy and can wreck havoc on those who have wanted a baby for years.