Im sorry to here you had miscarriages. That is terrible. You sound like you want a baby. I known people who had a couple of miscarriages then they tried again they went full term they were fine. Im sure you want to try again but your scared of having another one. I wish you the best. Ill pray for you!!!
I had a miscarriage at almost 20 weeks in Dec 2006 and am currently 13.5 weeks pregnant again. I am scared every single day that something will go wrong, but I always try to remember that every pregnancy is different, and just because I miscarried doesn't mean this one won't be fine. I've done alot of reading and talking to other women, and I know that until you've had 3 miscarriages, you shouldn't be too concerned. I know even ONE miscarriage is enough to make you wonder if you'll be able to carry a baby to full term, but just know that having a good relationship with your doctor is key. Ask questions. I asked my doctor at my last appointment if he thinks IF I have a miscarriage, will this pregnancy end like the last one (I was told baby had no heartbeat, went into the hospital and was induced and delivered the deceased baby), and he said "Anything is possible, and it's a part of life, but don't dwell on the bad stuff." I'm trying to keep my chin up and be positive about this pregnancy.
Good luck