need help

[littleone123529]

i am 46 i have been having trouble getting horney it is starting to mess up my marriage i dont want sex any more it seems that i hate having sex it is really making me upset i use to be horney all the time but it is now gone pleas help i some time want a woman and i am a woman i have been with a woman be for but my husband dont know i ever was it was the best experience i ever had i get on web sites to help turn me on i talk to other women and get them off i like doing that i like the touch of a woman and i like to touch a woman it kind of seems like i am gay but i dont know i would reather be with a woman then a guy every thing about a guy turns me off my husband knows i am looking for another woman that i can be with in front of him i want the woman to show him how to go down on a woman he watches sex videos but still dont do it the way they do it i try to tell him but he just dont get it please help me

[AnnieBrooke]

I would say, be honest that you prefer women to your husband, and consider changing your life so he is not your primary relationship.  The thing about looking for someone to do it with in front of your husband is that it takes you down the path into the world of kinky sex (and kinky partners, not everyone would be into doing it in front of a third party).  If you want a pretty average, normal life, the kind where the two of you come home from work and talk at dinner and relax in the evening in front of the TV and all, kinky sex is not going to provide it.  Simply acknowledging facts and getting into a satisfying long-term relationship with the right person will provide it.  

[bellaboo972]

you may need to be even more honest about your feelings and find a girlfriend. maybe try having a threesome....or if you want to really fix it more with your husband get turned on by watching porn right before you go to sleep with your husband