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I need help
Somebody out there please help me. I'm desperate. I dont know what to do anymore. I'm addictied to codeine! I cant stop! I used to have control. six years ago i started using percocet but only took it a couple of times a month to get high. That continued for years until recently i started snorting oxycotin, now percocet has almost no effect on me. I'm scared to death. I dont know what i'm supposed to do. I'm lost. I dont even know how to go about quitting. Help me someone please. I'm so scared. i know there are alot of u out there that have been through this realization part. Please can u tell me something that i'm supposed to do. anything.
Thanks again u guys for ur responses. Its good to know that someone out there is listening. Anyways giving pills to my b/f is outta the question cus he broke up with me today. (not related to this issue). Anyways it looks like i wont be getting well anytime soon. I'm not strong at all, i never have been. So i dont know how bad things r gonna get but right now those little pills are all i have to comfort me. Thank u for the advice. God Bless
OK SO REHABS OUTTA THE question........how about getting more and havin your bf hold them for you and do a taper?
First question; are you taking these for the "high" or just do maintain yourself? In other words, do you enjoy getting high, and if so, is it something you obsess about? I ask because if the latter is true, you should consider going to an NA type meeting for support to fight it, even if it's an online situation.
You may want to keep secrecy, but if the latter IS true, it sounds like the secret's going to come out eventually. You'll have a lot more respect from the community if you do it in the form of standing up and stating your problem and your desire to fight it. NA/AA is pretty respected, and they've got clout. Kind of a "West Side Story" thing here, NA doesn't let "Their gang" take Sh*t from anyone! :)
Otherwise...if you think you are "over" the concept of getting high, and feel you're just maintaining, you're going to have to take stock of your funds, and work out a schedule you can manage to handle with taking the minimum to keep yourself well. If you can get just a few weeks of not worrying about where your next dose is coming from.
THEN, you can take the time to pull together some things you'll need to do a detox. You'd have to get one of the blood pressure med's, like clonidine to do this.
Look, I won't lie to you, you want to do this in secrecy, without anyone knowing if possible, and that greatly decreases the chance of success. The kind of willpower you need to do it this way is enormous, but it can be done. You may want to take a long weekend when you actually start your detox, as you won't be able to work probably for about four days.
I know the information I'm giving is a bit vague, if you need more details on the treatment, let me know when you're ready to get the clonidine from a doc (or wherever!). You'll have to plan this out carefully, and then start it and put EVERYTHING else aside for a few days, take it easy for a week or two.
If it DOESN'T work out...well, you may have to realize it's to hard to do given the circumstances (not saying it is, some can, some can't) and you may have to make some compromises in your life to make this work.
You may want to keep secrecy, but if the latter IS true, it sounds like the secret's going to come out eventually. You'll have a lot more respect from the community if you do it in the form of standing up and stating your problem and your desire to fight it. NA/AA is pretty respected, and they've got clout. Kind of a "West Side Story" thing here, NA doesn't let "Their gang" take Sh*t from anyone! :)
Otherwise...if you think you are "over" the concept of getting high, and feel you're just maintaining, you're going to have to take stock of your funds, and work out a schedule you can manage to handle with taking the minimum to keep yourself well. If you can get just a few weeks of not worrying about where your next dose is coming from.
THEN, you can take the time to pull together some things you'll need to do a detox. You'd have to get one of the blood pressure med's, like clonidine to do this.
Look, I won't lie to you, you want to do this in secrecy, without anyone knowing if possible, and that greatly decreases the chance of success. The kind of willpower you need to do it this way is enormous, but it can be done. You may want to take a long weekend when you actually start your detox, as you won't be able to work probably for about four days.
I know the information I'm giving is a bit vague, if you need more details on the treatment, let me know when you're ready to get the clonidine from a doc (or wherever!). You'll have to plan this out carefully, and then start it and put EVERYTHING else aside for a few days, take it easy for a week or two.
If it DOESN'T work out...well, you may have to realize it's to hard to do given the circumstances (not saying it is, some can, some can't) and you may have to make some compromises in your life to make this work.
thanks for ur respose. i wrote it last night and for the first time in six years came to the realization that i had a problem. I knew i had a problem for a long time but only last night did i realize how far out of my grasp the situation has gotten.
I buy my pills from a dealer. He recently showed up at my house and offered me a 50 dollar tab. I'm not about to get evicted but my work is most definatly suffering as the oxy's r making me so sleepy throughout the day even after the high is over. So the thing is that i'm from a small town where everyone knows everything, i dont want my parents to know anything about this. Rehab is not an option because there's no way i can take time from work. I need to stop this. I'm fortunate that i have a boyfriend who is supportive of me in this decision to stop but i dont think he understands the nature of my addiction.
I took my last pill last night but am unsure of how i'm even goin to get through tonight. The night time is my worst craving time.
I buy my pills from a dealer. He recently showed up at my house and offered me a 50 dollar tab. I'm not about to get evicted but my work is most definatly suffering as the oxy's r making me so sleepy throughout the day even after the high is over. So the thing is that i'm from a small town where everyone knows everything, i dont want my parents to know anything about this. Rehab is not an option because there's no way i can take time from work. I need to stop this. I'm fortunate that i have a boyfriend who is supportive of me in this decision to stop but i dont think he understands the nature of my addiction.
I took my last pill last night but am unsure of how i'm even goin to get through tonight. The night time is my worst craving time.
First, you've got to calm down and stop panicking/obsessing. It's not helpful and will just make it worse (I know, sounds impossible, but try!).
There are various ways to detox, so next, you have to assess what you can do time-wise and income wise. You also need to assess your medication situation, how you get it. These things all matter because it affects your options. Someone desperate and cut off from their med's may end up have to go into a mmtp clinic, the worst of the choices...but.... better than being homeless.
If you have some breathing space of a few weeks, you can plan a taper schedule or just go straight to a clonidine detox regime.
Maybe you could give us a little more information about your situation:
How do you get your pills?
How long are you set for?
Does your doctor know of your problem?
Are you about to get evicted over this:? Lose your job? (Don't answer if you don't want to, but the more you tell us, the more we can realistically tell you what can work!)
There are various ways to detox, so next, you have to assess what you can do time-wise and income wise. You also need to assess your medication situation, how you get it. These things all matter because it affects your options. Someone desperate and cut off from their med's may end up have to go into a mmtp clinic, the worst of the choices...but.... better than being homeless.
If you have some breathing space of a few weeks, you can plan a taper schedule or just go straight to a clonidine detox regime.
Maybe you could give us a little more information about your situation:
How do you get your pills?
How long are you set for?
Does your doctor know of your problem?
Are you about to get evicted over this:? Lose your job? (Don't answer if you don't want to, but the more you tell us, the more we can realistically tell you what can work!)
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