Athena 8 read me:)

[chrosty]

No that drug trazadone is not addictive i beleve it is an antiphycotc or anti seizure med (which they use for all types of things) I really urge u to look into it u take one every day and it will prevent the panic attacks and i dont have to tell u how bad they are:) It sometimes gets so bad a person feels like they are having a heart attack. I work in a nursing home as cna and medication aide and the meds call out to me all the time but i have never taken them and never would it is my job that supports me and my babies i would never put my job in jepordy but i am not gonna lie it gets hard when i pass out the narcs but i just think of my kids and think of the patients and how much pain they are in and it passes. Plus we count them twice per shift so it would be impossible anyway.  Point is just ask ur doc about that i have a friend that gets panic attacks so bad she would get up in middle of night and run outside b/c she thought she was dying use to take xanax for it but another doc put her on the trazozone b/c it prevents them. Plus when u are having one taking a xanax and waiting for it to kick in seems like days!lol Please ask ur doc about it i think it would help u so much and it is not addictive i dont think I love u lots you reamain in my thoughts and prayers girl lots of love chros

[athena-8]

Chros,

Thank you so much my dear!!!!!! I wish it weren't Saturday, darn. I have to wait until Monday, but you can BET I'll be on the phone to her first thing on Mon. am.

Thanks for sharing about your job. That's great you do not have the problem I had w/the meds. I was such a crazed addict that I stole (and finally got caught!) 3 different times--twice at one office. Now that's insanity. I should be locked up in prison but both physicians let me off the hook, which I find completely amazing. They really liked me and had hope that I would clean up after such close calls. 7 years later...here I am again trying One More Time! You know, I always found a way to get them, regardless of the safeguards like the counts, but always got sloppy and caught in the end. I'm so glad that life is over for me. AT least until midnight tonight it is....then I'll start all over tomorrow.

How old are your children?

--Love,

A

[athena-8]

One more thing--Please don't get upset with me but i feel like I'd be of disservice to you, hon, if I didn't share this:

I never thought I'd ever steal those drugs either, but my addiction eventually led me to do hundreds of things I never thought I'd do... I know right now it seems unlikely that you would jeopordize your job and babies like that, but man, this addiciton thing is crazy strong. It makes us do things we'd never in a million years believe we'd do. Some people call them "YETS" and it's my belief there are a lot of "YETS" when opiate addiciton is involved.  Just talk to a few street junkies...they all started out innocently enough with thoughts like "I'd never do THAT..."

Now's the ideal time for you to get on the right path, sweetie, so you won't ever have to end up doing what I did.

ANyway, you're a doll and I'm sharing this just because I care. I want to say, "I'm not trying to scare you Chros," but I guess that's what I am trying to do. I just don't want you to go through what I have....

Love,

--AThena

[avisg]

trazadone is an anti depressent it helps with sleep as well :)