Miss me?

[oxysbliss]

Hey folks,
In again...thought I would drop by and say hello...
No PILLS.............................but I have puffed here and there..
Im STRUGGLING big time.....I am going without in alot of ways..and really want to jump in old ways...it's soooo hard...I try not to go out because well I am scared of myself and what I can do to myself..

I have the boys to look forward to..and t hat's the only thing that is keeping me going.....basically..

I cant stay long..here helping a friend cleaning her house...cuz she can't I do what I can..and inturn...they do the same for me...Im so alone though, I can tell you t hat...I wish I could come here and talk as much as I used to...I miss it..I miss having an outlook somewhere to put things.a.nd try to keep t hings in order...I am doing alot of writing though, s hould start on that book

Anyways I have been on here long enough
Loves ya..and those that do have my EMAIL...Please use it..I need some support and some reminders of where I have been...and what I have done with my positive thinking...pretty down..Im HOMELESS once again ..................and lol not from using drugs hahahaha go figure....

Anyywas loves you all
Hang in there..I might sound like my world is crashing down and it is..but it WILL GET BETTER..FOR ALL OF US...JUST TRY EACH AND EVERYDAY TO STAY CLEAN!! It's all we can ask of ourselves...considering all else...

[mom2rachie]

Girl, I just emailed you!!!!  I really REALLY miss you!  I don't even think from what you said that you'r going to read thisb ut PLEASE email me back.  I am here for you.
PS I owe you money too!  That'll get you to write to me!!
xoxoxoxoxox
- Tara

[Gypsygirl66]

Hi, yes I miss reading all your great posts, you were and are an important part of this forum. I'm so sorry tho hear that you're having such a hard time, but boy you havve your head on strait. I'm not sure I know many ppl that could do what you've done. You've srtuggled a long, long way to get where you are, try to look back at all that you have come through and you have really done it so graciously. You are definitely one of the ppl that I think of in my when I'm sruggling and often when I'm not. You may think that you are in your darkest hour, but you shine like a September moon. You are a real insiration and have helped me in just so many ways. Please keep us posted, whenever you get the chance. Stay focused, stay strong and avove all stay in the moment.

Just so you know I just had my 2nd surgery in less than two weeks, a week ago this past Wednesday. I started on day 1 again on Monday and am in my 5th day I think. I am using Sub to help, but very sparingly. As you know I can't go the c/t route because of my med. conition and I expect to be off with in 3 more weeks or so  I just figured out this weeks schedule, you may remember I had a lot of memory probs. when I w/d the last time. I'm not sure if it's form the Sub or just my brain......LOL. I'll be sending out an e-mail soon, just need to get my head around.

Take care of yourself girl and don't beat yourself up. You're doing a he11 of a job up there on your own.
xoxoxo,
M

[LIZZIE LOU]

i miss ya :(

i am so glad that you can find a computer to get on every once in a while to let us know how you are doing.  sorry things are a little rough right now but i am sure that they will get better.  
speaking of those little "buggers"...anything changed?  still just talking to them?

i will put you in my prayers oxy...i will pray for you to have strength to continue on this road of recovery and that soon you will settled into a new life.

keep stopping by...we miss you

huggs,
kim

[fishmeal]

Yes.

[CATUF]

I did.

Speaking of the confusion caused by the names of major world cities also being the names of lesser known (but perhaps just as nice or nicer) cities . . . . Earlier this week I got pulled into a landlord-tenant dispute where just that issue was presented.  

The landlord was actually away and his live-in friend was doing all of the cussing and yelling on the landlord's behalf.  Quite noble on his part, I thought, given that it was before 10:00 am and it had to be difficult to stand and speak being as drunk as he was.  

Anyway, he barks at me that the actual landlord is in Moscow and that he's responsible until his friend gets back.  I'm looking at this drunk, obnoxious, red neck and wondering if it's more likely that he's the live-in friend of someone who went to Moscow, Idaho or Moscow, Russia.  I was actually think of you during this brief pause, since I had failed a similar test with you.  

Well, I didn't have to think long . . . he removed all doubt be glaring at me and snarling "that's in Russia, in case you don't know, ASHHOLE."  

I said "thank you, I wasn't sure."