Been through Inpatient detox - need help

[JB1939]

I just completed 5 days of Hospital opiate inpatient detox. I was released 1 week ago with instructions to take 4mg of Suboxone film 3 times a day. Two days after I was released I started to have all the symptoms of withdrawal. I went back to the doctor that administrates the hospital detox program (who I have to see to receive suboxone refills) and he insisted that I was not in withdrawal and there must be something else wrong with me. He took X-rays of my stomach and said if I'm not better in a couple days to come back to see him; otherwise he gave me a script for 8mg suboxone twice a day and in answer to my question as to whether I needed more or less suboxone, he said he didn't know, but if I changed dosage to say on the changed dose 3 days. He then sent me on my way. Logically I thought maybe I needed more suboxone and started the 8mg last night. I planned to wait 12 hours before taking more, but woke up sick after only 10 hours. So I took another 8mg. It took about 6 hours to feel better. The same thing happened during the day and had to take another after only 10.75 hours after I had taken the last one. I had ask the doctor if I could just stop taking the Suboxone all together and he said I would go into terrible withdrawal. Is this true even after I did the in patient Detox? I DO NOT want to take any habit forming drugs and no matter what, I eventually want off Suboxone even if I can't just stop NOW! I got started on pain meds for chronic back pain, but I would trade the meds for the pain. Please help me with some good advice. Thanks much.

[atthebeach]

Hey D what's going on? Please don't isolate. Talk to us. We care and
Want to see you heal.
You are in my thoughts and prayers
Debbie

[atthebeach]

hey D, yes it is going to take time. you are going to have to endure the detox. if you continue to take the subs it is going to get even harder to get off of them. instead of a Norco and perc addiction now it is subs.
much longer and harder detox as you are finding out.

once again I am so sorry the detox center put you on the subs when you came home.

please, please stop the subs. get to some meetings, counseling something to help you locally during the initial month it will take. you need constant
encouragment.
at 7 days you were 1/3 of the way there.
don't let subs be an option. please stick it out. move forward instead of
backwards. you can do this. hard? yes, but you need to break the chains and bondage of this addiction.
praying for you

[motye51]

Glad to see u post again. Man, it is hard! This is definatly not a cake walk. This might sound stupid butttt, u have to dig real deep and find the strength that we all have, we just don't think we do. This was one of the hardest things I've ever done. About 8 days in my husband was wanting to take me to the ER and there was no way I was going t here, for what, w/d off of drugs.??? I had to yell at myself, scream at myself, I'm strong, I am bad ***, I can do this! I know u can so do this. Get all if the vitamins listed, stock up on that gatorade, I used protein shakes otherwise I wouldn't have eaten at all, get the immodium, and get up and do it again!
Don't take these subs any longer, b/c it will only get harder and then you'll be right back where you started, addicted! Keep posting, I know u can do this!

[JB1939]

I hate to admit it, but after 6 days I gave in, Taking ½ mg in morning & night. I am planning to try again. I think I know a lot more now thanks to you all!

I now know why so many people fail. I t is really tough. I bought some strips to test my urine and at day 6 no opiate, but still showing subs even after 6 days at 0!

I am getting my head ready to try again, Will taper slower and see what happens.

Thanks for everyones help!

[atthebeach]

10 days out. Praying & hoping you are feeling some what better.
The light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter.
Keep the faith.
Hugs

[motye51]

Listen to these people, they know what they're talking about.  The above posters have told you the truth! I was so grateful to these people for telling me truth while going through this crap b/c I thought I was going crazy....I was like, WTF?????  They are absolutely right when they say 3/4 weeks with the subs, they are stronger and stay in our systems longer! One thing I did find that helped tremendously was the Epsom Salt baths, when my body temp was going up and down and I had gone to the "toilet" so many freakin times, it was in the tub for a soak. I would put in my earbuds, put on Pandora, soak and try like hell to get out of my head, and it did help!  Remember, nothing to try and substitute the missing energy for now, b/c that will only make the "anxiety", or "waves" as I liked to call them worse!  AuNatural....the way to go and you will start to feel better soon.   High protein foods (even though I had NO APPETITE) you must eat!  Hang in there, it will start getting better before you know it.  When I couldn't think I could go one more step, I would go into the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror and tell myself, I can do this! I am strong!  We are all strong....you know you are stronger than the subs!  :)