Hi Neenie, Your questions hon are not too intrusinve, I have a very painful history which led to my decision to leave nursing, I now am a toddler teacher at a preschool....and I have a 3 year old and a 7 year old.....I hate to do this to you but....i have to go and do some shopping for Easter but I jumped on to see if you got my last message, when I get home I promise I will either send you a post or if you would rather I could e-mail you....then i will share everything with you....i just didn't want youto think I was just not responding to you....ok talk to ya soon cindi
sorry you are not feeling good. hope my questions were not too intrusive. the last thing i want to do is sound oo inquisitive. i have just always been so interested in people's life, their pains struggles and where they are coming from. i am in the wrong profession. i have always wanted to do journalism- the next barbara walters or something. i just wanted to know what happened so that i would not make the same mistake. i know you are more exp. and educated than i am on certain things. and it broke my heart to hear you gave up such a great profession voluntarily. well, anyway, nsg. is not what it used to be anymore. i am sure you had better times as a nurse than i will have ahead. i already hate it. the money is good and that is about it. i hate doing bedside nsg. but i have a home, kids to support and need to supplement my husband's income. , although we lived good while i was not working for a while. and it was my choice to go back to work. i wouild really like to talk to you some other time. tell me something: how come when i want to read a post and it is at the bottom, meaning the last post i have to scroll all the way down? is there an easier way to do this? i am new at this. not too good on the pc so i need to learn. i only sign on to read this forum and a few others about parents w/toddlers and to check my mail. i am wasting a lot of resources and info by not exploring the computer. i just found out that the pharmacy approved another supply of oxy that belong to my uncle but he always gives it to me and here i was saying i am giving it up to try the ltyrosinethat everyone keeps talking about. i want to try it for withdrawals, but i hate thinking about WD cause it is so easy for me to obtain so much of any kind of pill i want. the only thing i can do is come out of nsg. like someone suggested, take a huge paycut and just live with it. and i can't do it. so instead of going to the healthfood store as advised, i will pick up those god forsaken, paralyzing, pills, love,neene
Hi Neenie, I am too tired and not feeling really good right now to answer your questions but tomorrow I promise I will get with you and help you out....take care cindi
that last post was meant for you but i got confused b/c you gave me your email as patrickflannery but your name is thomas ???????? sorry. are you the same person? anyway gotta go. neenie
that site was for AA not NA and i have never touched an alcoholic drink in my life. i wish it were the same with pills. thanks ever so much for giving me your email address. everyone here is so nice. it is so comforting to know that i have you guys.for the longest time i was just reading posts and i never thought i would write one but i had to let you guys know that we're all pretty much in the same place. people think that being an addict is like only for scums it is so surprising how manyeducated, successful, professional people are burdened in their daily life with this. there are doctors, lawyers hooked on so much stuff and they function better with it, like me. my family, my husband doesn't have yhe slightest clue. i go to the pharmacy by myself and usually i go everywhere with my husband. we hang out together a lot so he wonders where i go when i have to get the meds, but i cannot let him know. he is the sweetest person and i don't want him to know. he would worry about me with the kids when he is at work.any way i almost told him the other day, but he would never dream about the severity of this and everytime i try to stop, i end up just getting my hands on more. and i don't mean 10 or 20 or even 50. i mean a lot more, and it is that high i crave. gotta go talk to you soon, neenie
cindi, just read about barry manilow. i am 26 years old and i went to see him about 4 years ago. none of my friends wanted to go with me even though i offered to pay and even treat them to dinner . finally my best friend went w/me. i think i was the youngest person there. love him bigtime. every one of his songs are beautiful, nostalgic. patrick, i am so afraid to go to AA/NA meetings b/c of my profession, job, am paronoid of the least little thing or anyone knowing/losing my license. but i know i am sinking deeper and deeper into this trap. even worse than it was a month ago. i started on tyl#3 . two of those little pills got me sooooo high three years ago. just two. now i can take 5/ 40mg. of oxy at once and an hour later take 3 more and just continue to chase that feeling.let's not even talk about the hassle that we go thru getting them at the pharmacy. the panic when you give the script to the clerk, wondering if they will call the dr, the way they look at you at the pharmacy, wondering if they will recognize that you've been there before for the same meds... i would love to go to meetings, have a sponsor,kick this way of life that seems so nice at the moment. but when i run out it is hell and then i try every possible avenue i could to get more.i want to try the L-Tyrosine. knowing me, i will probably go right back to where i started. i have 3 small kids . this gets me through the day. pllllllease give me any kind of insight to this guys..anyone love,neenie