DO YOU THINK THIS IS TRUE?

[beenthere2]

I have recently read a great book titled "Junkie:  Confessions of an Unredeemed Drug Addict" by William Lee (aka William Burroughs).  The book was written in 1953, however sadly, the subject matter is timeless.

The main character is wealthy and develops a tremendous heroin habit.  But his take on it is what really struck me.  He states:  "Junk (drugs) wins by default.  You become a narcotics addict because you don't have strong motivations in any other direction."  For Bill (the main character, the great irony is that he gains the motivation, the need for money, only after he becomes a junkie.

So do you think this has merit?  Have you examined the motivations in your life?  Is there a link between boredom, ennui and addiction?  Personally, I can see the correlation.

[Bodymechanic]

Since you have started to do step work, look at first part of step twelve. It says "Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps" It means that if you work the steps you will have a spirital awakening. Also, I hate to sound like a crazy person but, the god spirit is already in you. It is you that have totally supressed it by ego and pride. This is not my personal judgement on you, just the rules of the game.

Once you get into the principles of the 12 step programs you will realize that it is no different than the basic premises of all major religions. Much of the AA program was taken from the bible, Mathew, Sermon on the Mount.  You might want to read the book Sermon on the Mount by Emmit Fox.  Drugs or no drugs, it changed my life.

[groovygirl]

Hi - I haven't really been following your progress...are you totally clean right now?  Is that what is causing the extreme depression?  I know all about depression...I feel like if I could only just get back to where I was before I started with the drugs I could be happy.  I didn't think I was happy then...I've always struggled with depression.  In retrospect, those were the happiest times for me.  Happy pills (Zoloft and the like) don't seem to work for me...I wonder why.  I've been trying different ones since my early 20's, and nothing has really worked.  There are some that I haven't tried that cause you to gain weight, so I've always said no thank you.  That is another issue for me...I've always been thin, but I have a fear of being overweight.  I'm one messed up girl...sometimes I say "why bother" too...if I didn't have my family, I might not be here right now.

[lisabet]

Hey Rex - Miami '72 - perfect season!!! Love those Dolphins, although they haven't done anything astounding since!...smile.  for your info - started the tapering - plus no Jack Daniels; had a little "slip" for a few days during Thanksgiving, but then got back on track.  Got news today that I was laid off from my job; feel so wiped out emotionally, but I'm still trying to keep the hydros to a minimum.  I actually scared myself today coming home on the interstate; thought it would be so easy to just "slide" into one of the many tractor trailors; I've never had thoughts like that before, and it really frightened me because for a half second I actually considered it. Only the thought of my son jolted me back to reality.  Some days life just seems too hard. Hope you're doing well.  Love/Peace, Lisabet

[hippy]

hey belle i hope your doing ok, my prayers are with you.
everything take time, stay on the positive tract
it will get better, your doing your best.
thats our job , to do our best god does the rest.
sometimes we try tyo do the rest, and thats not our job.
sometimes our best is not so great, we just have to keep moving in the right direction. small steps in the right direction
will get where we need to get too.
so take it light.
one of our biggest problems is we focous to much on ourselves,
we judge ourselves to harshly , we need to get our foucous off ourselves and on
our higher power,

peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[southernbelle]

my mom's the one who attempted suicide and had EST , not me, didn't want you to misunderstand that.  i just don't want to end up liker her.  it's a constant fear i have.  she made our life pretty hard when we were young.

[southernbelle]

thanks for checking in on me.  right now i'm trying to adjust to this medication.  i'm truly depressed, so i feel like i'm doing the right thing.  i see the psychiatrist again tomorrow, so we'll see how it goes.  i got a lot done at work today, tried to stay focused.  the thought just keeps running through my head "what's the use, what's the big deal?"  basically, it all boils down to me feeling overwhelmed and stressed out.  how do you work , have a career, raise good kids, be a great wife, manage your pain, manage to not be stressed?  i feel like i'm just fading away or something.  nothing of the old me is around.  nothing.  i'm just blue right now.  i'm sure i'll snap put of it. my biggest fear is ending up/being like my mom.  oh goash, if that happens.....i remember so many problems when i was young....suicide attempts, electric shock therapy.  it was pretty rough.
BUT I am trying to stay positive, or at least mellow. if a pill helps ease my pain and help my mindset at the same time, then why is it so bad????